I have family in jail... do you? I think of them often... I do not agree with what they did that caused them to go to jail, I wrestle with knowing I have family & friends capable of harming others... I understand that they had difficult lives, still it does not excuse their actions & that is why they are in jail. Who really knows what someone is capable of until they reach their own breaking point. There are millions of people around the world who snap & in a moment they choose to make a wrong decision & life changes dramatically.
My brother was (his words) stressed, sick (with cancer), fat, tired, angry & overwhelmed.. I still don't excuse his actions but he told me (I believe him) if he did not go to jail he would be dead by now & 'God want's him alive for a reason'. We were separated as toddlers & not raised together, he was raised by his dad who was a violent man (I've heard far too many horrible stories from several including my brother) and we then met again in our 2o's, he is a year younger. He has been judged by many including me but I'm not judging him for his past any longer, I told him: I will be judging him from this day forward.
& look forward to him be the good, caring man I know he can be.
I would hope that's how we all judge each other as: We all fuck up.
He has been in jail for over 4 years, 3 of them I never communicated, he did not let me know he was there as he was ashamed for me to find out. I found out... for whatever reason God wanted me to reach out & I did. He tells me is closer to God than has ever been - having a lot of QUIET solitude can do this for some. This time', (he brags) not his first visit to jail - he's been punched, slapped, spit at and each time he has turned the other cheek - which is a very big deal for him & shocked & amused me. I know theres a few I have thought about slapping' how about you?
I know God can't be pushed on anyone... but I pray several I know in particular do find 'God' because I know how faith changes our lives. So, he asked me to buy him a book about making$. He is intelligent & accomplishes much when determined so I thought -
'Big sister' has control at the moment... sure I'll buy you a book... I bought him three! Nothing about money & I included a note:
When God want's you to make money you will - don't get fucking distracted!
I sent him:
The Power of Now. He is a fan of Eckhart but not read this, I have & love it.
I Declare! Joel Osteen This simple book is a little BURST of positive verbal God energy that we all need from time to time. Self help books would not be the multibillion $ business that they are, if not the case.
A Course in Miracles I never push this book on anyone, when you are meant to read it you will, it is NOT an easy read mentally or literally. It is Jesus teaching at his finest & where I learned to truly fall deeply in love with my homeboy & I've never been more content & confident about... everything. If he does not want it I suggested he donate it to the Jail library. What can I tell you about this book other than it changed my life & gives me strength. It is my 'bible'.. think what you want, I started to read it a year before brain surgery & it has helped me through the most difficult days, it speaks to me - I've read it 3 times & still I open it to any page for inspiration as I did to draw this card.
Some stranger on FB said 'that book will change your life.' It has, it does.
It reminds me not to judge anyone.. we do to know the path each other has walked to get where we are. Amen..
& it inspired this card thinking about my brother & the countless others who are incarcerated & alone. Not a great way to BE or to start when free again - which he will be soon back into the world of: Lead me Not into temptation. Yikes..
So, I want to makes are he's well read. lol - I know he will laugh & I know he will read the books. If you know someone in jail - how about sending them a card? Just a ' hello..'
You never know & Lest we not forget: WE all fuck up.
Look at this Stunning Foggy Morning photo I took while looking for he paper!
with TLC & THC
To show this person in jail and then in a garden when reminded
He is there with me.
This card was design for someone in jail to remember they are never alone.
The bars & garden were drawn on a cut up plastic sleeve.