I'm feeling blue in California - surrounded by this sunshine, greenery, ocean how can this be? Easy. The heart wants what the heart wants.
If you feel blue about something at home- chances are you'll feel blue about it when away.
I've tried all I know, my heart on my sleeve.. If I knew how to feel un-blue I would.
I can't 'do' anymore. I think I know- but it's out of my control. I Gave it to God.
Time will tell.
Add to this, I am in an area where the people are in my opinion are not very friendly. I'm in a conservative area. If I had to ask.. I bet I'm in close proximity to a few Trump supporters- I'm not asking.
I hope I do not offend but: What's Up Orange County?
This is after a week of constant little interactions and I thought I was alone until yesterday, I met a woman originally from New York and she said the same. She's been working & living here 10 years and tells me she hardly knows anyone and never socializes. ;( How sad. She too said 'it's a different feel here' -'when you speak to people here - they look at you like "Are you talking to me? You actually want to speak to me?" Yes, that is it exactly! & when I speak to any Mexicans who I see working all over.. they too look at me like "is she speaking to me?" They at least become friendlier when they realize I am, and just want to say 'hello!' I don't know. It has escalated my feelings overall of being somewhat 'alone'.
I'm glad I'm staying with a friend & met his lovely family or it would be quite the shock to my Canadian sweet (not just syrup) system- lol
People I do communicate with (even strangers) constantly remark - "You are so nice!"
I'm just being Canadian 'Me.
Understandably, I found myself painting Bears as this song play in my head over & over.
Listen baby, ain't no mountain high,
Ain't no valley low, ain't no river wide enough baby
If you need me call me no matter where you are,
No matter how far; don't worry baby
Just call my name; I'll be there in a hurry
You don't have to worry,
Oh baby there ain't no mountain high enough,
Ain't no valley low enough,
Ain't no river wide enough
To keep me from getting to you babe.
I feel a bit better as I imagined my bears- as I do.
There, with Bear - I feel nothing but love.
Look at them.
I know it's there.
I gave it to God.
I feel pretty good about it now that I have, I will admit!
I'm working on my 'Happy Canada Day Tomorrow!'
Again Bear, Moose & Beaver in the woods!
Can't get much more Canadian that that, Eh!