This painting was waiting to emerge, more than I realized.
hee hee, I'd say that sky WAS a little boring ..before.
It started with one of my bigger brushes and I threw the paint on - base color on a white canvas, sketching my bear with a brush instead of a pencil- "just paint!" I remember thinking. The rest of the days were spent with much smaller brush - as small as a '0' most of the time.
As a matter of fact- it's how the fur was painted as well as the grass. TLC in every stroke.
THC too. I'm learning to recognize my calmer moments (twitch-less) when I can work on more detailed areas like the face. I enjoyed painting this you have no idea & clarity in severals issues flowed to me like paint off my brush.
F*ck off. LOL.
Who needs this negative drama? Not me.
Frig, Im tired- I think a lot lately- i just want to paint.
Focus on what you love Georgia.. enjoy your time doing what you enjoy most.. whispered my canvas.
I am tired - I've been waking up every few hours for weeks, I went to the Dr. Monday and he felt what I also discovered recently, a big lump in my arm pit. It's been causing me pain but I thought it was just stress from a few others things I was trying to sort out'. Thursday I was already having a mammogram & ultrasound. The mammogram was not bad at all, btw.
I've felt worse.
Then I had the ultrasound and I could see what she could see and suddenly there was a big black ball. "Is THAT it??" I asked
... "Yep, that's it."
Yikes. That is... disturbing- seeing big black ball inside your body.
It would take 5 days possibly with the long weekend for results I was told.
It was called already it is a very swollen Lymphnode which I will have to have checked again soon. I'm told to relax, destress & enjoy. Ha! You don't have to tell me twice.
Before I got the FANTASTIC news I had already resolved that morning (after that great walk I had with my son) - I will rise above! I started my day with CoconutCream home made - bakery cake, fresh pineapple (the bakery is in Newmarket - I highly recommend, as does Storm & now Norm) & coffee... then I got the call. I'm Smiling!
YES I AM. & know to keep on going the direction I am ..rise above with love.
Anger, hate, revenge- I've no time for.
Who does? it's bad for the body, it's bad for your heart & mind.
Not to mention -it makes it difficult for me to paint. ;) Truly - I was so tired that after I got the news I slept! lol ;) the body saying RELAX. I JUST finished this bear at 6 this a.m.
I plan on doing just that. There is nothing like a serious cancer scare to help re align your life. What matters? Hate begets hate. I can't paint if I feel hate, I physically can't & won't do it to myself. Think about cancer seriously in your own body and you realize how trivial so much of 'it' is.
Thank You God.
I needed that.
Natural medicine is on my mind. The last Mapping of the Minds event educated me further and arrgavated me fruther- one more F*&^%$$$ lie it appears. Mushrooms are on the bottom of the list when it comes to dangerous 'drugs' (on the top was alcohol) or common recreational drugs... even after cannabis! I resent calling them drugs. I had no idea. Why are we being lied to? Why are people going to jail over such insanity!
God put all plants here for all man- OUR CREATOR knew when these plants were placed here- they would HELP US. *Mushroom are dangerous- IF YOU PICK the wrong ones YOU can die. KNOW your mushrooms- ALL of them. They are also healthy, beneficial and medicinal. Bear is contemplating life, Nature & Medicine.
I've included a Star mushroom- puffball', I met a very smart young man on one of our last forays with a cool name who educated me on them and where to find them.. the others are imagined or real- I'm not sure I've seen so many. My Bear Afternoon Delight is out and on my wall, Norm said "Wow, it's like 3D with those dots!" Storm too has commented on the detail several times. I JUST want to PAINT it does the heart & art Good.
With it- thought, prayers and resolution- it always happens when I paint.
GIVE Thanks! I've already started another canvas!
YOU know I'm (WE are ALL) celebrating this Thanks Giving!!
I'm still experiencing pain- I shall increase my medicine intake- amen.
& enjoy every second of it.
24 x 36 Acrylic on Canvas Celebrating Natural medicine & Life.