Love is at the root of everything...
Love or the lack of it.
with TLC & THC
I lovingly refer to (& I think he'd love this): 'Vincent VanGogh 2019' hee hee.
I paint freestyle - by looking - to look is to get lost in Vincent Van Gogh, pure pleasure. Some of you will think I've lost my mind - like Norm who recognized 'Starry Night but not the Skeleton smoking as both of Vincent's paintings.
Doing what he loved yet distracted, tired, sick, lonely, overwhelmed - sound familiar- Depression. Apparently had his Mental health issues been addressed he would have been very successful & might've seen more than one painting sold. Addressed & not shunned - it can go two ways from what I understand - the 'not so nice way' is more people taking their own lives because they are taking medications that do not work - Depression is not a racist nor does it care about how much money you have. If we keep shaming, an article I read stated people will just start to hide it better... until they show up at Sunday Mass with a grenade for the cash basket.
When we shame mental illness we are applying the same rules as prohibition - what a failure it has been. If your face twitched 24/7 you would think about this stuff too. God's not playing anymore - pay attention ;) "You are only as sick as your secrets" - a remark I think I heard on a Pod Cast- it must have been my favourite 'Hidden Brain', every episode interesting. Growing up 'My Moods' were shamed, often... a big secret, I get it - NOW- this is how some handle events but it's not healthy imo - the sooner we address unpleasant events & feelings the sooner we can try to heal & move on, my mom had a terrible event happen to her at a fairly young age & was understandably depressed at the time - but now many parent's are both paying more attention to social media then their children.
The kids won't be pleased when they get older.
It's a fact - try to prove me wrong.
How many generations started the same way as Vincent, myself, my mom was one of 6 kids & I never met any grandpa... dealing with mental illness decades later, generations later. Babies having babies, young parents having too many, too soon with obligations thrown at them pretty quickly - I've blogged when we were first married how we stole a case of baby food to get by... By the Grace of God - it's why I was more than happy to accept donations to food bank at Halloween. Yes, I speak from experience - marriage is difficult enough - wait to have your babies -be ready to welcome them with love.
Instagram, face book, Selfies, Social media, socializing & recreational drugs YIKES!
MORE & MORE babies are ending up with a wire monkey mom. & or dad.
Please, Wake the fuck up. Babies do not ask to be born - we humans are given the choice to procreate - carelessly - if we desire.
People use to often remark when Storm was little:
"Let him cry!" or ... " You never put him down... " Amen.
Please put down your phones & pick up your babies.
With TLC & THC
Give me space! When upset, or frustrated... I often think: I can't paint - I don't feel like painting.. but that is bullshit - I always enjoy painting, it just takes some personal 'ass kicking' to get me past it. Luckily, someone recently suggested: How about a space monkey & mushrooms! Looking for cute chimps was the first step in the right direction- do it- try.. look at cute chimps and then you'll find your thoughts of your breast in a vice dissipate .. lol perhaps not YOUR thoughts - but it worked for me.
Soon your imagination kicks in too for some fun & before you know it - 6 hours later this cute frigging space chimp is looking at this alien mushroom and I'm smiling. The problem is I painted this chimp for someone else - this mushroom monkey is already spoken for, many of my gifts turn out to be some of my favourites - painted with love & it shows. The next day dealing with calls to discuss the miasma of a mammogram I decided I wanted my own space chimp.. you'll see him next & then - that chimp inspired a canvas! Which I am terribly excited about - see ? No time for re-living events with bitchy boob technicians when surrounded by space chimps on a mission!
I have shared my experience on social media especially after the owner expressed her apologies for "my perception" of a bad experience - different from what the Technician has expressed - as if I thought she would admit to being a cunt. Fuck that - don't even try to PROJECT your 'perception' bullshit on me.
I know, God knows & that BITCH knows what she did to me & I am o.k. with that.
I learned this woman is also ruining the simple what should be joyful ultrasound experience for first time parents - why??? & NEVER lets anyone else in the room: NOW, I UNDERSTAND WHY. She is miserable & takes it out on the strangers - patients she works with but one day she will piss off some new expectant mom & DAD - or have someone in the room that won't 'just' YELL BACK at the bitch. * I am NOT an advocate for physical violence I believe in us all creating our own karma - this woman if she keeps at this one day her breast will develop a lump and she will be treated with very little compassion. OR she MIGHT be treated with LOTS of compassion & then UNDERSTAND what a complete CUNT she is being. Let's hope for that!
I have sent email etc.. the thought of a young mom experiencing what I did or any of my friends - around my age (all getting breast screening exams) PLEASE don't do here.
And about my results ... No one seems to give a fuck but me.
I've not heard anything about my breast.
Do I think she needs to lose her job - Yes, if she can't recognize a problem.
IF she takes anger managment or some course to make her aware (because clearly she is NOT) that she is dealing with often sick, frightened & VULNERABLE patients & she IMPROVES ... maybe. As it stands currently - no one admitting to any wrong doing,
I do hope the business closes. IF they keep it up - it will be unavoidable.
* I would like to add the girls/women at reception were lovely, professional & the looks of helplessness of their faces (something I have the 'preception' they have experience too often from unhappy patients/clients) when I went out to that counter - I knew I'd be wasting my time & taking out my anger on them - I left.
PLEASE AVOID KESWICK Advance imaging - please warn others.
WHY chance it? OR DO go there- I would suggest YOU demand someone go into the appointment & why. & if you could not do this- I know I often go to appointments alone.. IF you can - record the appointment on your phone - Had I had 'just the audio' of my visit - I know it would convince people of the abuse & a lawyer & judge.
Just in case below are a few more other peoples "perceptions' - don't say you were not warned:
More monkeys up next & hopefully no more mammogram memories..
I have bigger things than my boobs to focus on! hee hee
I thought of the name for my card company!!!
Website being designed... IG page being set up - wait until you see my 'WEED' line!
with TLC & THC
Take it slow like this sweet little sloth... frig he's sweet, if I do say so. Take it slow.. baby steps until you know & there is much opportunity for knowledge- thanks to many! Those who have ventured before us - Thank you. Psilocybin use has I noticed those who share & those who don't. I don't care what you do, I have Trigeminal neuralgia I wouldn't wish it on TRUMP ( you know how I feel about him) It's on the increase- especially in women -If I did not share that I am getting at least some 'mental relief' thank God - from Psilocybin I'd be ashamed of myself! This cold weather is brutal- this cold hits my face like a frozen shovel - I will NOT leave my home... which will make for a boring birthday tomorrow - expected -26 winds- forget it - I invited one person to spend the day with me tomorrow, I'll get out of my PJ's just in case! hee hee hee It won't be boring! I have my girls and painting & crafts & then some - excited for each day - pain included.
I wait for Crusty Rusty to call - he's RIGHT again! & he told me from day one "Jane Philpott doesn't know what the fuck she is doing and can't handle the job!" TADA! Good... leave- anyone who quits like this WE DO NOT NEED representing us. She lost confidence in Trudeau- Phhhbt.. she's using Trudau as a scapegoat. Good riddance. Adios - shuffle along. All 'this' will make Justin Trudeau a stronger, better man it already has. I tell my own son all the time "thank those who 'challenge you' or piss you off' they teach you more & (and quicker) than you realize... because I know my sons a good man and although not perfect - he will continue to learn from life & not let it stop him from succeeding & be better because of it. I know this about Justin too... change is good- Justin is not going anywhere.
Yesterday a gift arrived & I don't think he knew it's my "birthday week" lol My friend Stephen Boeheme Glass artist sent me a Musrhoom pendant - that is hand wire wrapped & I got dressed today- just so I could wear it! The girls are envious LOL - I LOVE IT!
Wow, this American pal continually restores my faith in good people (I'm blessed to know a few of You who DO) I am absolutely touched by this gift - I had me speechless. NOW -
I can't wait for foray season- I can't wait for nice weather- gonna rock this pendant EVERY DAY! When it arrived I held it to the window to see it in the sunlight on it - Poppy was all over it and she looked and me and the feeling was mutual, (we speak telepathically btw) ;) "that was the nicest gesture mom, you are surrounded by such wonderful, creative loving beings..." I know Poppy... I know. He actually sent me TWO mushrooms! What a glass collection I have - they have ALL been gifts of love from several & I look at them EVERY day. The attention in the details - the little bags they came in (orange octopus) are also lovely! Bravo Stephen - No wonder you were just awarded 1st place for the best Millie in 2019! Well deserved.
The sloth was painted in Timelapse - you can see it if you follow my Instagram account - IG by the way - last week in one day my account dropped 30 people... in an hour, wtf?
My thought... FUCK IG, playing with people like that - the next day the numbers were back 30 an although I constantly have people requesting to follow' each day the numbers decline.. lol - who cares the same crap happened when I was on FB. It went from 15,000 t0 7,000 overnight. It's just a game - don't get distracted by numbers'
When God want's my work to be seen- it will be seen.
I am confident in the Lord more than Social Media. :) Hee hee!
There's more important things/events/history being made than my paintings OR social media in this world that we ALL need to 'see' so we can change it. Slowly if need be.
#betterblance #internationalwomensday2019 #fuckyeah
1 or 1,000 000 followers... I follow one that matters & am loved by that ONE.
That's ALL that counts. <><
For those of you that do tho... thank you! & Thank you Stephen.
I wish this fox could be seen in real life- it POPs off the paper - I'm pleased with how it turned out as I had no intentions of painting a fox when I sat at my desk. This painting was started at approx. 6 a.m. and I finished it at 1:30 with only short leg stretches (peanuts in the feeder) and coffee & snacks.. I'm sure since I post them daily people think I 'whip them off' I assure you, that's not the case. lol I realize this because Ginger is at that age - "come play with mom!!" & I find it a little annoying when she interrupts me all the time and must remind "US" - spring will be here soon & I can take them outside & let this one run off steam - she's bored & I have NOT walked her once this winter, I don't go out when there is ice on the sidewalks with constant balance issues - it's not FUN or worth a broken hip or bone. Interruptions come in many forms as it is - and I LIMIT them. No e mail, I don't own a phone so no texts interrupting me, no TV when painting - it's usually music. Canvas - only music.
Why do I try to share daily? To inspire... keep going. Keep going. KEEP GOING.
& I am grateful that several over the years have e mailed me who read this blog to say just that - so .. it's the least I can do & the best I can do - too!
Not only will 'you' become better at anything you practice daily but your mind will thank you for it. Depression is at an all time high across the world - I GET IT. The thing is - I'm not depressed - I feel pretty darn happy most days - other than short bursts of frustration with Norm, I go around here singing & dancing with my girls in between works of heart.
All it takes to change this mood is to focus on the 'news for too long... so, I don't.
It's why you see an increase in art... forcing myself to focus on creation instead of destruction - for that there seems no lack of.
What will you force yourself to FOCUS on today? A line from "How to change your mind"... Who controls your cranium!? Hee hee - Hopefully you can say: ME!
Control your cranium! That's exactly what I'm about to do with a cannabis joint before I start this NEW day on a new adventure in painting.... take control of my cranium before I play with my octopus. lol sounds kinda kinky.
** I recently have been receiving e mail from what appears to be 'Rogers' our main service provider here in Ontario anyway - providing a link WARNING me IF I do not go & re-address my information my rogers account - my e mail will stop coming & yes, it appears official, the sender is a rogers e mail address as well, anyway - I contacted Rogers directly & have been assured IT IS A SCAM:
"I can confirm that this message that you have received is not coming
from us. Due to an increase in the amount of spam messages being sent
to customers we have developed a way for customers to report these types
of communications. If you still have the e-mail please forward it to
firstname.lastname@example.org for internal investigation and blocking. Lastly. if
you are looking to block an e-mail address from sending you messages you
can generally do so through the junk e-mail settings directly on your
BEFORE you send any information - contact the company directly and just ASK
"is this for real?" the few moments you can NOW could save you a lot of headache later.
Have a creative day!
NEXT - another octopus - an alcoholic octopus!
With TLC & THC
...progress on the canvas below.
This painting was just going to be a quick play with paint.... it ended up being a bit longer & as always I loved every second - I just realized I didn't do any bubbles! Oh well, it will remain as is I'm already mentally' on the next and equally as excited! Inspired by a photo of pink coral, while painting I watched Blue Planet on netflix - how magnificent is this world of ours so much of it we can only see in part thanks to amazing photographers who venture the deep to show us a different world in our world. Global warming has me wondering if we will only be able to see fish in aquariums int he future... I hope not. lol - I told Norm last week "you're taking a day off and we are going to Ripley's!" but the weather that day was a brutal (-23 so forget that!) instead we went to BigAls and ran a few errands - it was a nice BURST of tropical & I was grateful for it - with it I purchased Mr.Limpet who's crib sits on my desk ;) I like looking up, seeing him calmly swim around the coolest little betta tank ever imo - thanks to Stephen Boehme - both eyes open - i am reminded to complete another task today!
Do you see all the fish hiding? I especially like the little blue fish... fyi there are over 40 fish in this painting.
Jesus makes me LOL every day- I don't care what people 'think', I have a great relationship' with my homeboy and it puts me at peace better than a weighted blanket (hee hee) yesterday he reminded me how 'close' by son & I are... I was thinking about Storm as he's been incredibly busy, go figure - so we've not seen him much and never know when he will visit & yesterday i was in the kitchen -I had literally JUST made a pizza dough - bacon in the pan - fresh homemade pizza in a couple of hours, (Norm made the best homemade fish & chips I've ever had on the weekend, so I have to step it up) music on, dogs watching, glass of wine - what could make it more perfect as i prepared our dinner?
In walks Storm! "Perfect, we're having HOME made pizza tonight!"
His reply: "No way!" & disappeared back out to his truck- in he brought a NEW pizza rolling pin! It's all one- very comfortable on my hands - how cool was that? Sadly, I have no pizza left over today - he took them all when he left! lol Somethings never change.
It was a perfect pizza night.
It's a storm today & I can feel it my hands had me in tears just from frustration & pain as soon as I was up, medicated heavily already I'll snuggle & read this day until my hands warm up. As long as I can paint... I will thank God every day - for 'all' of it.
Time for a new canvas - I have been painting EVERY day but I don't show them because I like the recipients to see them first in person'. :)
LOVE is on my mind - I think a few valentines are needed!
I'll make a 'card' for you to print & cut out several valentines to share with your buds.
Old School style!
Come back tomorrow to download your free LOVELY printable!
With TLC & THC
New little black book! I'm more excited about this little black book than the one I carried in HIGH school, this one will be filled with all sorts of subjects & I'll time-lapse for any who want mini gouache lessons (shared on Instagram - Georgia.Toons) & hopefully someone will want to purchase it when complete & I'll donate the money to the local food bank or humane society, that's along way off still - a whole year but that's the plan... I've got plans for 2019. How about you?
I've been reading about Alcohol problems, one article states we might be the new Russia- how sad is that Canada? We all know the association with Alcohol & Russians - the 'facts' we don't realize, the struggles they have and the death & destruction because of BOOZE - yes, direct correlation to alcohol. If you want to watch something interesting & entertaining watch Prohibition on Netflix, a 3 part series- -wow, they where wild in the 20's. Prohibition FAILS with Alcohol & with Cannabis- with all drugs. It's always been women & children who suffer the most because of alcohol abuse...
How many Children are effected NOW/still by the same situation and have no control & no where to go? How many will grow up to be alcoholics because they see it as the 'norm'? How many will turn to stronger substances because alcohol isn't enough for them anymore.. lot's - History proves it.
I will celebrate this 2019 by not getting drunk, perhaps a glass of champagne.. perhaps not. I don't need, I don't wish to encourage it.. I know the pain it causes.
I won't have a hangover ;) that I know for sure.
I will consume cannabis - smoke it & inhale, edibles will be consumed & I won't experience a hangover.
2019 is going to the the year for growth.. as a country & personally.
I keep getting the message from the Lord himself in one way or another - ;)
I brought you to "it" I'm going to bring you through it'.. and I must say - my confidence is at an all time high.
Looking forward to 2019 when the Sun, the Moon & the Truth will all SHINE.
People are already realizing the negative lies & hype behind cannabis after only a few months of legalization, thank God.
With TLC & THC
Peek a boo! Santa is that you?
Another TREE themed painting, I'm in the tree mood - How many will actually set up a Christmas cannabis tree- I've seen them before & technically NOW in Canada WE can! Have a Legal Cannabis Christmas tree - Ho Ho Ho! There will be several tinkling on Instagram no doubts! Not me.. I like my tree traditional and my other tree - in the bowl of my bong.
My tree goes up this weekend! I look forward already to sitting by it int he evening , relaxing with a tea, joint & cupcake.. or two.
It's going to be a stressful Christmas for many GM employees this holiday, better they know now before they go deeper into debt for the holidays. I did hear most people like cash', not me - if you can't think of a thoughtful gift - it's o.k. pass me & It's not about the cost either. & I don't give 'money' - not even to Storm. I DO however give away several paintings this holiday, many not yet at their destinations - I'm excited at the thought.
Already I hear, see & read on social media of people being stressed about gift giving: Don't. It is NOT worth the stress and harm on your own health... it's JUST STUFF.
This Peek A Boo Santa was painted while I thought of how to paint a 'T-Shirt design request from a young woman who happens to be a real fellow tree hugger & it's school related so, I said 'yes' & I'll show you that painting soon... I think it turned out pretty sweet - she did too.
Medicated carrot cakes for the holidays! Legal!
Oh my! Has it set in yet? Give Thanks Cannabis is now legal in Canada, I was reading even IF legalized across the board in the USA they will STILL use it federally to arrest their own, HUMBUG - talk about messed up priorities - tear gassing children & STILL punishing people OVER plants. Yikes - we had a cop shoot another cop just yesterday near St. Catherines.. wtf? GUNS kill. Somethings got to give... soon.
Please Give away your guns to the police... ?
With TLC & THC
Not mine.. that's pushing it. I think people who already have the tree up are pushing it- lol We do have the outside tree- it has to go up before too much snow but my inside tree does not go up until the weekend... so much to do!
I just found out (from Alexa) it's #giving Tuesday! I'm giving my time & skills already..
Today I'm teaching another friend how to paint! I'm on a mission- put more painters on the planet.. and starting new canvas. I've also been commissioned to draw a few- DOGS for Christmas gifts - one for a Bulldog in a barber shop- you know that's going to be fun ;) This cold, wet weather has been difficult on my bones - Thank God for Legal Cannabis or there would be less painting & more napping & I'm also baking medicate carrot cake today, someone I care about seriously hurt themselves & I don't want anyone using addictive 'pain pills' for an extended time.. besides how can anyone resist my carrot cake? ;)
What are you giving? Have fun!
TODAY is #giving Tuesday! I'm giving this original away on Instagram to someone who comments & tags a bud who might be interested, it can easily be framed (not included) with a frame you PU at any store that offers frames for about $20. * IT can not get wet- or it will ruin. Please remember this IF you win it. I'll choose the winner when I wake and announce it in the a.m.. What can you give today?
Smiles count so does time, love, listening...
When I do hang the stockings - I do hope Santa puts some bud in them this year!! Woo Hoo! Legal in Canada- You KNOW there's going to be many a stocking filled with cannabis in Canada this year & many to come!
With TLC & THC
Check out Ginger - she absolutely loves Daisy.... & Daisy loves her.
Ho Ho Ho! Santa makes his appearance in parades all over - not sure whom I love more reindeer or Santa! lol In Canada Santas reindeer eat Hemp - good for the heart!
It's all about Christmas now- or rather the Christmas spirit... not stuff.
It's about baking gingerbread! Decorating the tree (& outside for us) & painting all things ..
the postal strike is over & I have presents to mail - all over!
Paintings for a select few of my friends.
I've ordered Candied orange peels for Christmas goodies & a girlfriend is coming to help me bake next week! Although December is still a week away- it will come & go before you know it... so time to get in the Spirit!
This year instead of giving away a painting to just anyone - I chose someone to paint for & I am very pleased with my gift! It's being mailed today to an America friend I met on IG, Im excited for them to get it because I painted MUCH love into it... as I do with everything.
IF you are expecting a mail/package from me - PLEASE be patient, ho knows how long anything will take with the mail due to the strike backlog.
What are your plans for today? Put some love in it!
With TLC & THC
Georgia... On My Mind.