While packing I've discovered a program - 'Portrait artist competition UK' - I'm glued, watching - 3 different artist enter to paint a portrait of someone famous...  incredibly versatile on styles & mediums, fast, creative - it's inspired me to paint more people. 

Many of the artists for practice paint themselves, not because we love our own reflection but because - it's free & easy... well easy for some.  I for one do not enjoy looking at myself in the mirror for long periods of time- once I remember and focus at what I am doing - I get past vanity & on to learning & painting. Vincent VanGogh painted himself many times... a painted journal - the original selfie king.   Today being slightly  grumpy - needing to paint, my hands are sore from all the packing & yes, I'm mentally exhausted - to think of 'what to paint' - forget it, what I decided was start a mini journal of portraits ONLY  most dont take longer that 15 mins., - all who will sit... but I will sit for me first - because it's easy, fast & free. I'll TRY for one a day!

Problem is...   if people go by 'my self portraits - LOL - they won't think I'm any good. I am what I am... as a matter of fact I thought this particular portrait is pretty accurate.
I'm pleased.                    Our face has little to do with our abilities.  

My ego is the asshole that occasionally reminds me about my "ugly face"... 
- not for most peoples  standards anyhow, then I am reminded thankfully - child of God you were created to create & Jesus loves me. hee hee I like saying it, I say it out loud to my girls all the time.  Gratefully, I'm not overly concerned about other peoples standards any longer..   My face is in twitchmode big time... stress, moving, $$$, meeting strangers, having them come through your private home - daunting. I can't imagine hoarders going through this... I'm getting nothing but positive feedback and still find it's stressful- the hermit in me is not not happy- I've had to step out of my comfort zone too many times lately and I'm ready to embrace the forest with each passing moment.  Packing is waiting.

This is me. This is a good first self portrait - I caught me.
If you do like ME as I am - thank you... I am trying.
If you don't like me - what are YOU doing here?  Creeper.....   lol
 
Boxes to pack.. 
with TLC & THC
​Georgia
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Storm showed up yesterday (unexpected- we know how busy he is) complete with Tomahawk, special salt, pepper, potatoes & organic Arrugla - craft Raspberry beer in a cool artsy can for us to enjoy -we joked about  cananbis edible 'regulatons'  as we cheered'.
It's all the news - Oct is the date but by Christmas - watch out- Santas has stockings to stuff!
I will have several Chrismas cards available on Forever Grateful soon.  I'm excited! 
Many alcoholic beverages now infused with cananbis are going to be available & here is where I guess I am o.k. with the limit being so low..  for those NOT use to cananbis- it is ALCOHOL added to the mix' that concerns me regarding  safety. PLEASE drink responsibly  Cheers - I will try a couple - but not being a fan of alcohol - will stick with the joint, bong & edibles! Nom Nom!

I  already have a rule at the new house.. no booze.
No alcohol - I won't be serving it - other than perhaps A glass of wine  or A beer  - with a great meal... I would never forgive myself knowing someone I care for left my home - impaired. It's a long drive.  Been there done that -  Alcohol has been the destroyer of many (too many)  days in my life - either due to others being under the influence or myself.  Those days are done. Norm does not drink now, why start?
He has a to do list longer than the driveway already!
Weeeeeeeee...    & lifetime to do it.

I've actaully have been refraining from feeling elated, that shit with the bank - talk about buzzkill.  BE HERE NOW.     Fine.. until I get the keys - I paint.
I painted this for a gift for the woman who is currently in the home. Last night during dinner  I admitted to the guys...  "I think we even LOOK alike!" & Norm choked- "YOU do! I thought so too!"  I did not even look at the kitchen - (speaks volumes) I was so - 'stunned' at how much that house looked & felt like me - all the masks, art, buddhas, prayer- I can't wait to PAINT.  Norm has to build right outside my studio a deck across the back of the house :) (we are both excited) I will have him add an outdoor easle - big enought to hold HUGE boards to paint- like my friend Bonnie does (check out her work! I love it)  I can't begin to tell you how excited I am knowing I am moving up here - with birds, trees & peace - to paint. God promised.
Every obstacle shall be removed!  Weeeee! 

Packing up the office today - I will miss this amazing office that has the one full custom built in wall (wish I could take it with me - I take the handman instead ;))
All who have seen the house are amazed with Norms craftmanship - not me.. too bad it took 26 years. Better late than never! Amen.

Just imagine what we create together next! 
O - is for OFFICE   ;)

I love this song....   SAVE us ALL      Tracy Chapman       

With TLC & THC 
​Georgia 

Love.
​Love is at the root of everything...
Love or the lack of it.

~Mr.Rogers. 

I concur.    
with TLC & THC
​Georgia

A wookie with a custom Storm Trooper bong - what couldbe more 'May the 4th'...
 be with you.   I can't tell you the last movie I watched - part of the series.. too much of  good thing after the 3rd..imo.

Have you watched Knock down the house? The new political Documentary on Netflix? I can see that woman as president one day, I wish she was already, she is an inspiration  & I am grateful she speaks up'.   We are also watching 'Dead To Me.' which is intriguing with it's twists & turns, it's refreshing to have stimulating content with strong women characters.

Canada needs more cananbis stores, they are  in  High demand.. especially since it's been a year & others have not witnessed increased reefer madness  & new education is on the horizon & with it a new mentality!  

Dough Ford is a disappointment- he appears instead to be turning Ontario into a bunch of  lushes & I was infuriated - you can NOW legally drink alcohol on the golf course at 9 .a.m.  - Don't forget if YOU are in an accident on the golf course - YOU will be charged as if impaired.  

I would like to add:  If you need to be drinking alcohol  on the golf course at 9.a.m., you have fucking drinking problem.  The same for many other places- now legal to serve with your pancakes - Cheers.. I wonder HOW many impaired offences will increase in the next 3 years...  I wonder how many more alcoholics all be 'born' with Doug at the helm & His 'buck a beer bonanza'...   It will do more physical & mental damage than REEFER madness actually did.

Enjoy the day & all it brings. 

With TLC & THC
​Georgia

In preperation for  May the 4th.,  I  had a bit of fun with two ideas... this is the first.  May the Spores be with you! Spores sending out messages of  Love, Peace, Faith in oneself.  
The other I might show in a couple days I don't want to rush it. 

Did you ever meet a Dog you knew you had to meet? I felt that way today.. kinda strange.
​Did you know if you have fluffy cat it can get arthritis & become matted, we had this happen this winter.. luckily we have a wonderful groomer  at  our local 'Global Pet Supplies' &
I now have a shaved...   Fluffy.   Quite amusing visually.

I drove almost an hour for a one minute suntan to try light treatment for psoriasis, I'd rather try this before oral medications, as it's slightly out of control - I am trying some thing.   I must say... It felt nice & I felt good all afternoon with that mega burst of LIGHT * I look forward to natural sunshine any day now... until then please continue to shine.   ;D

Did you know the Original Wookie Actor passed away?
https://www.space.com/star-wars-original-chewbacca-peter-mayhew-dies-at-74.html 
May the Force be with him.
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with TLC & THC...

 I lovingly refer to  (& I think he'd love this): 'Vincent VanGogh 2019'  hee hee.
I paint freestyle - by looking - to look is to get lost in Vincent Van Gogh, pure pleasure.  Some of you will think I've lost my mind - like Norm who recognized 'Starry Night but not the  Skeleton smoking  as both of Vincent's paintings.

Doing what he loved yet distracted, tired, sick, lonely, overwhelmed - sound familiar- Depression.  Apparently had his  Mental health issues  been addressed he would have been very successful & might've seen more than one painting sold. Addressed & not shunned - it can go two ways from what I understand - the 'not so nice way' is more people taking their own lives because they are taking medications that do not work - Depression is not a racist nor does it care about how much money you have.  If we keep shaming, an article I read stated people will just start to hide it better... until they show up at Sunday Mass with a grenade for  the cash basket. 

When we shame mental illness we are applying the same rules as prohibition - what a failure it has been.  If your face twitched 24/7 you would think about this stuff too. God's not playing anymore - pay attention ;)  "You are only as sick as your secrets" - a remark  I think  I heard on a Pod Cast- it must have been my favourite 'Hidden Brain',  every episode interesting.  Growing up 'My Moods'  were shamed, often...  a big secret, I get it - NOW- this is how some handle events but it's not healthy imo - the sooner we address unpleasant events & feelings  the sooner we can try to heal & move on, my mom had a terrible event happen to her at a fairly young age & was understandably depressed at the time - but now  many parent's  are both paying more attention to social media then their children.
The kids won't be pleased when they get older.
It's a fact - try to prove me wrong.

How many  generations started the same way as Vincent, myself, my mom was one of 6 kids & I never met any grandpa...  dealing with mental illness decades later, generations later.  Babies having babies, young parents having too many, too soon with obligations thrown at them pretty quickly - I've blogged when we were first married how we stole a case of baby food to get by...  By the Grace of God - it's why I was more than happy to accept donations  to food bank at Halloween. Yes, I speak from experience - marriage is difficult enough - wait to have your babies -be ready to welcome them with love.  
Instagram, face book, Selfies, Social media, socializing & recreational drugs YIKES! 
    MORE & MORE  babies are ending up  with a wire monkey mom.  & or dad.

Please, Wake the fuck up. Babies do not ask to be born - we humans are given the choice to procreate - carelessly - if we desire.  

People use to often remark when Storm was little:
"Let him cry!"  or ...     " You never put him down... "                      Amen. 
Please put down your phones & pick up your babies.
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With TLC & THC
​Georgia

Happy 4/20! & Happy Easter! Woot Woot!
I have fond memoriers of the last Easter 4/20 spent with my little friend Jamie
(no longer with us), I'll cherish that Easter forever. 

Today is 4/20 and the FIRST official LEGAL 4/20 in Canada - my fear mongering friend says many will be busted today - I doubt it. Unless  people are behaving badly - then,
so be it. 

Nope, I'm done thinking negative about cananbis concerns, Canada is legal & I feel more good than bad has become of it!  Other than the Ontario gov. & Legal dispensaries opening withOUT access for the disabled patients purchasing their MEDICINE  - I'm thrilled about cannabis in Canada NOW.    Amen

I celebrate this Holy weekend thinking of my homeboy Jesus & smoking joints!
God's medicine & I can easly become grateful feeling to the point of tears because  - I AM.

I am forever grateful for cananbis easing our sons pain &  my own & many more. 
I am forevergrateful God, for this journey as it has taught me many lessons I know I would not have learned otherwise.  

I am forever gateful to Jesus for his constant companionship... when all else 'appears to disappear', when I am left feeling beyond blue due to situations beyond my control - he reminds me (& alwasys has):  You are never alone & I'm  at peace.
Who wouldn't want that?  
What ever helps you achieve this feeling in  life  - go for it.

This new found knowlegde' & ever growing faith have me more forgiving, compassionate  & TRYING to be more understanding in general, I think that's a good direction to be going.  

Happy Easter to all my peeps, thank you for continuing to  inspire in all the ways you do.

Easter is about Rising UP!  Shine as birght as you can...  
Easter & daily Jesus reminds me keep moving forward - while trying to help others along the way...  pretty simple stuff.

I am celebrating! Hoppy Easter!
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With Love
​Georgia 

Hello April!

April fools it appears we are - first we woke up to more snow!  lol  The sunshine is melting it quickly tho, and today is the day privately owned dispensaries are permitted to open legally - those who won the Cannabis store lottery- apparently only one is officially ready to open... jokes on us again?   I did see on the news one place in particular - the woman states in interview  (more or less - I'm not sure of exact wording)  This new 'Canadian dispensary' - bragged how they wanted to start off right' & they hired an American company  to design the store -  WTF?  I'm not going there to shop... it's that simple.

Believing  the USA has better creative humans/resources than right here in Canada...  
is a joke.
Canada is incredibly Creative.

It's not personal my American friends - I KNOW you would feel the same & to be perfectly honest - I think it's a recipe for failure here in Canada (well they do have the cannabis that will help them) look at all the 'big USA brand stores designed, inspired by American mentality - currently not doing that well in Canada, several locations closed or closing.. Target for example.  Many of these other places all appear somewhat 'cold,  impersonal & very 'consumerism' driven.   Not very Canadian imo..  
Not friendly, approachable or enjoyable..     Eh?!

So - Happy April fools! 'one' more Cannabis store  to visit - I'll wait to see what other creative CANADIAN inspirations appear before I choose to spend my Canadian money  to support other Creative Canadians.      

With TLC & THC
Georgia

Have a terrific day!  
​I've got a date with a Space Monkey!

Here is space monkey number 2  'Canadian Space Monkey' the last was for an American friend.  He's a different chimp with a little more of a shocked & delighted expression - I did not look at the first monkey when I painted the secod or the 3rd, on canvas - currently a work in progress  & was all from imagination, I'm curious myself to see it completed and compare. 

This week on the Ontario govenment posted on it's Instagram page some terrible cannabis ad..  Obvious fear mongering  continues and if you have taken 'marketing' - imo it borders on subliminal & that is NEVER encouraged  - it least it wasn't back then.. it was a two part add see below the first states:   ​Can i face penalties for buying illegal cannabis?    CAN I  with the word CANNABIS in the back ground - subliminal due to the soft fade of grey forcing one to stop and think,  also (not that I am an expert)  incorrect grammar with the small i - lol - is that grammar?  and the very next IMAGE is:  A GREAT BIG GREEN = nothing to hide here  YES.

Yes & remember to look for that seal ! Talk about timing because in a few weeks if I recall we are going to have some  more 'legal options to choose from & competition  - GOOD!  Bring it on!  Let the games begin!! Hee hee! With a healthy market comes - healthy competition! Better prices - more creative products - marketing! T-shirts - promotions - STUFF - EVERY other business does - Including the pharmaceutical companies give out goodies to invite future business - right?  & Hoopla!   It's about time.

I feel good about cananbis in Canada & I'm not about to let anyone including the CANADIAN Gov - ANYMORE make me feel guilty about it! Remember, not very long ago they told us to throw it in the kitty litter or they'd break PATIENTS doors down. Enough is enough.  No one should be made to feel guilty about purchasing anything.  Stealing perhaps.

 It's not our job to know who's who - If I see a cananbis store & I want to go in I'm going in and I will GO into privately owned dispensaries before I go into the ONTARIO Government stores because I WANT THE EXPERIENCE!  Have you seen some cannabis dispensaries in different countries - wow. From "trendy to a first class elegant experience."   

Wow am I ever tired of being treated like a number lately - How about YOU? 
Norm works hard for our money  (lol for those who caught that) & it's boring so far, they made it boring..  it's biased when I can go into he LCBO & get lost  with  all the creative marketing - Storm always finds me cans with Bears on them, I don't drink them (they do) but I'm going to use the can's in my studio somehow - they are terrific! Very Canadian! Colourful & imaginative! 

We have proven we want cananbis & yes we want recreational cannabis and why shouldn't  it be - recreational- FUN! Enjoyable... chill.  IGNORE the continue propaganda.

This past week someone slipped a pan of brownies into a seniors lunch - NOT COOL!  
For one, if they don't know they could trip and hurt themselves -*NO one died (of course) & I bet many had one of the best sleeps they have had in a while - still please don't do it, ask them - I bet they say yes.  

They can't threaten us with horror stories anymore yet they continue with the threat of INTIMIDATION with arrest & punishment - fines. $$$
Remember this when you have more buying options.

Dear Ontario GOV:  
PROVIDE FRIENDLY & EFFICIENT SERVICE
& QUALITY PRODUCT & YOU WON'T HAVE TO CONTINUE
TO THREATEN US WITH YOUR ADS...  

I DON'T SEE THE LCBO RESORTING TO THAT CRAP. 


With TLC & THC
​Georgia 

Give me space!   When upset, or frustrated... I often think: I can't paint - I don't feel like painting..   but that is bullshit - I always enjoy painting, it just takes some personal 'ass kicking' to get me past it.  Luckily, someone recently suggested: How about a space monkey & mushrooms!  Looking for cute chimps was the first step in the right direction- do it- try.. look at cute chimps and then you'll find your thoughts of your breast in a vice dissipate .. lol perhaps not YOUR thoughts - but it worked for me.

Soon your imagination kicks in too for some fun & before you know it - 6 hours later this cute frigging space chimp is looking at this alien mushroom and I'm smiling.  The problem is  I painted this chimp for someone else - this mushroom monkey is already spoken for, many of my gifts turn out to be some of my favourites - painted with love & it shows.  The next day dealing with calls to discuss the miasma of a mammogram I decided I wanted my own space chimp.. you'll see him next  & then - that chimp inspired a canvas!  Which I am terribly excited about  - see ?  No time for re-living events with bitchy boob technicians when  surrounded by space chimps on a mission!     

I have shared my experience on social media especially after the owner expressed her apologies for "my perception" of  a bad experience - different from what the Technician has expressed - as if I thought she would admit to being a cunt.  Fuck that - don't  even try to PROJECT your 'perception' bullshit on me.

I know, God knows & that BITCH knows what she did to me & I am o.k. with that.
I learned this woman is also ruining the simple what should be joyful ultrasound experience for first time parents - why???  & NEVER lets anyone else in the room: NOW, I UNDERSTAND WHY.  She is miserable & takes it out on the strangers - patients she works with but one day she will piss off some new expectant mom & DAD - or have someone in the  room that won't 'just' YELL BACK at the bitch. * I am NOT an advocate for physical violence I believe in us all creating our own karma - this woman if she keeps at this one day her breast will develop  a lump and she will be treated with very little compassion.  OR she MIGHT be treated with LOTS of compassion & then UNDERSTAND what a complete CUNT she is being. Let's hope for that!

I have sent email etc.. the thought of a young mom experiencing what I did or any of my friends - around my age (all getting breast screening exams) PLEASE don't do here. 
And about my results ... No one seems to give a fuck but me.
I've not heard anything about my breast.    

Do I think she needs to lose her job - Yes, if she can't recognize a problem.
IF she takes anger managment or some course to make her aware  (because clearly she is NOT) that she is dealing with often sick, frightened & VULNERABLE patients  & she IMPROVES   ... maybe.   As it stands currently - no one admitting to any wrong doing,
I do  hope the business closes.   IF they keep it up - it will be unavoidable.
* I would like to add the girls/women at reception were lovely, professional & the looks of helplessness of their faces  (something I have the 'preception' they have experience too often from unhappy patients/clients) when I went out to that counter - I knew  I'd be wasting my time & taking out my anger on them -  I left.  

PLEASE AVOID  KESWICK Advance imaging - please warn others. 
WHY chance it?  OR DO go there- I would suggest YOU demand someone go into the appointment & why.  & if you could not do this- I know I often go to appointments alone.. IF you can - record the appointment on your phone - Had I had 'just the audio' of my visit - I know it would  convince people of the abuse & a lawyer & judge.

Just in case below are a few more other peoples "perceptions' - don't say you were not warned:

More monkeys up next & hopefully no more mammogram memories..  
I have bigger things than my boobs to focus on! hee hee   
I thought of the name for my card company!!!
Website being designed... IG page being set up - wait until you see my 'WEED' line! 

with TLC & THC
​Georgia