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I woke up the other morning to howling, very close and I could hear them moving closer, as did the dogs. I don't let the dogs out anymore if it's not light out, well not the little dogs, especially not Poppy. I guess they were coyote, possibly wolves, albeit I've heard them many times now but the other day, they made me cry. It's been about a month but my cat is gone.
He was out late one night but I was not worried as he always came in, usually before 10 so I made sure the dog door was not locked before I went to bed. Not long after I went to bed I heard some 'screaming' (near the back of the house) and I knew what it was, I just didn't want to admit it to myself. When I got up and starting looking for the cat outside, I noticed the dog door was locked. For some reason Norm closed it, shortly after I went to bed. I asked him "did you even bother to check if Chairman was in??" He responded "Yes." which clearly was a lie, if so he would have known the cat was not in. Needless to say it caused a huge argument and I'm still struggling with even speaking to him. Something snapped... enough is enough. How many times do I have to forgive carelessness, stupidity and intentional nastiness?
I've asked this of God on too many occasions.
I believe had the dog door not been locked my cat would have come in and still be here & to top it off, he of course did not apologize... days later after another screaming match he yelled 'SORRY!' It meant nothing, it wasn't a ' I'm sorry for my careless actions' - it was 'I'm sorry you're being a bitch' and just wanted me to shut up, sorry. I know many know exactly what I'm speaking about. Especially those in 30+ year relationships. He has done so many things over the years, often saying sorry & expecting me to just move on, and I did, for decades but now - I AM done. His 'sorry' no longer mean anything. I'm also done 'forgiving' as I feel it just sets me up for the next occasion.
I have no desire to communicate with him and I will continue to pray to God for strength.
No, He didn't kill my cat, but he locked the door, not even checking to see if the cat was in and then lied, it was absolutely feels like the last straw, I'm beyond tired of living like this. It's just one incident on a long list.
I'm afraid to get another cat, still crying about Chairman Meow, he was not here for long but his love for me was powerful, he literally threw his paws around my neck every morning and every night and kissed me. The dogs too all liked him. ... I'm sorry I could not protect him. I heard shots shortly after the howling, I was grateful, they seems directed where I heard the beasts, I'm guessing to scare them off. I hope so.
I'll ask God for forgiveness for the anger I feel in my heart & to help me heal & get past this.. that's all I have to give anymore. Now... I'll go force myself to paint and Thank The Lord for this day he has provided.
Created to create.
He was out late one night but I was not worried as he always came in, usually before 10 so I made sure the dog door was not locked before I went to bed. Not long after I went to bed I heard some 'screaming' (near the back of the house) and I knew what it was, I just didn't want to admit it to myself. When I got up and starting looking for the cat outside, I noticed the dog door was locked. For some reason Norm closed it, shortly after I went to bed. I asked him "did you even bother to check if Chairman was in??" He responded "Yes." which clearly was a lie, if so he would have known the cat was not in. Needless to say it caused a huge argument and I'm still struggling with even speaking to him. Something snapped... enough is enough. How many times do I have to forgive carelessness, stupidity and intentional nastiness?
I've asked this of God on too many occasions.
I believe had the dog door not been locked my cat would have come in and still be here & to top it off, he of course did not apologize... days later after another screaming match he yelled 'SORRY!' It meant nothing, it wasn't a ' I'm sorry for my careless actions' - it was 'I'm sorry you're being a bitch' and just wanted me to shut up, sorry. I know many know exactly what I'm speaking about. Especially those in 30+ year relationships. He has done so many things over the years, often saying sorry & expecting me to just move on, and I did, for decades but now - I AM done. His 'sorry' no longer mean anything. I'm also done 'forgiving' as I feel it just sets me up for the next occasion.
I have no desire to communicate with him and I will continue to pray to God for strength.
No, He didn't kill my cat, but he locked the door, not even checking to see if the cat was in and then lied, it was absolutely feels like the last straw, I'm beyond tired of living like this. It's just one incident on a long list.
I'm afraid to get another cat, still crying about Chairman Meow, he was not here for long but his love for me was powerful, he literally threw his paws around my neck every morning and every night and kissed me. The dogs too all liked him. ... I'm sorry I could not protect him. I heard shots shortly after the howling, I was grateful, they seems directed where I heard the beasts, I'm guessing to scare them off. I hope so.
I'll ask God for forgiveness for the anger I feel in my heart & to help me heal & get past this.. that's all I have to give anymore. Now... I'll go force myself to paint and Thank The Lord for this day he has provided.
Created to create.
