I have so much happening my head is spinning and I do not know which way to turn... turn to prayer. Another person is angry with me- what else is new.. I speak my mind - I am not nasty - truthful and YES the truth fucking hurts - oh well, so be it- we will acknowledge and do something about it or not. I have mentioned many times my tolerance level for bullshit went out the window with my failed brain surgery. It's a good thing.
I have lived my life for years for others- as most moms/wives do - and It's time I took back some control and started to make decisions for myself about myself, my son is now 23 and on his way, I must say I am beyond proud of the young man he has turned out to be.
I was having a conversation today about housewives- wives who stay home to look after the family and HOW - still to date - are treated with little to no respect or have any $ value placed on YEARS of service causing numerable problems - let me tell you, I have learned this the hard way the past few years and I have had enough.
Tomorrow my blog on the reality of being a wife in the society that tried to tell ME it is s job that we deserve nothing for... & my run in with the bank. Fuck that.
It's been a long time coming this blog.. I hope it is lesson many woman will learn the easy way by me sharing my own experience.
Judge me if you want- if you are reading this blog, I have nothing to be ashamed of in this life! I have lived. I had several relationships before I got married (thank God- the world is FULL OF people we should meet) Norm and I have been married 25 years and it has been DIFFICULT to say the least, I am yet to find others who disagree after 25 years.
Even my own hubby is guilty of this mindset and it it has my mind racing...
Women are treated unequally still - why? Because man thinks it so.
Talking to another friend in the same boat and she too said "it is not about not being in love with our husbands it is about not liking them very much at times."
Today the Prime Ministers wife Sofie, is getting flack asking for help- typical! Instead of celebrating her admitting - what most women do not do - but FEEL IT! I can tell you I know so many women that do not admit they are feeling overwhelmed... it turns into internal stress, depression, over eating, they become miserable and affairs enter the picture. Fact.
I'm sorting things out.
I am strong.
I AM powerful and I have never let a man stop me - not any for any reason and have no intentions of starting now. I am not ANYONEs property.
I am beautiful. Especially on the inside - for those that can not see through my twitch.
I will get past this and be better for it.
Tomorrow: The bank in a snowstorm - fuck it!
I have not forgot about the birdhouse I was making for Hempwick- I want them to see it in life first.. so I will show it at a later date. Below a few little paintings I've been doing- it is difficult to paint when I feel like this- its why I must move on- The paint is waiting!
I still painted though and that is a good thing!
My son is taking to the 'Mushroom meal' this evening with the MST I am very excited!