There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it's going to be a butterfly.
R. Buckminster Fuller 

A picture is worth a thousand words...
If you see love in this photo it is because it exists.

My hubby saw this photo and instantly asked “WHO is that?  Looks a little close  to me... “   
All I could think to say is “yes, it does, that is my friend Chris.”  ;) This expo was the first time Chris and I actually met and that photo taken then. We have been friends on FB since 2o10.  I never saw his photo before  the EXPO and had no idea what he looked like. The moment he said ‘Hi'  my heart jumped - CHRIS!  I thought & he is handsome too!  LOL 

When I first met Chris it was online, FB. He was a medical patient and had suffered a very serious accident,  I knew he suffered extensive damage to his face and brain not to mention everywhere else, I had seen photos of his x-rays but I did not know much more...  then  after a few posts, curiosity got the better of me and I asked.  I am learning to be BLUNT - how else do you find stuff out.

Well, the rest is history.  A history filled with questions, likes, comments, shares and more.  
Chris, for some reason I decided to trust and share a few details about my own head pain long before many others even knew what I was dealing with, asking him what strain he suggested for head pain, a few things... I still do ;-) Just the other day I asked: Do you swear more? 

I as you might know if you pay attention to this blog, I have been frightened to say the least, hard not to when you are dealing with something and Dr.s can’t seem to figure it out so.  I ask, he answers.   It has been a God send for me. 
That makes me giggle, Chris and I have a different opinion on God - BUT even that we put aside to discuss other more important stuff! < How it should be.

Who else do you ask? If you don’t know from experience - YOU don’t get it! 
He gets it. Explaining things I am experiencing.  

I was thrilled when I heard he was coming to the EXPO!  I really consider him a friend and I felt it!  I know he cares for me and I him and we just became friends on FB and because of Cannabis! How cool is that?   

That being said I did ask Chris If I could share a few details. I was going to ask him to write a blog but I thought -  no, better to see his answers, up front & honest.  Just as he shared with me and I am so grateful he did.

Below a few photos, I borrowed  from his profile, and a few of our messages... ;-) 

 I asked Chris to share his accident and he did: 
I have my card due to a very serious car vs. snow removal truck in 2003.
I was a passenger that had a 10 wheel dump truck full of snow turn in front of us, crossing our path. He turned illegally (double yellow line) into a parking lot to dump his snow (illegally on private property).
He claimed he did not see us, but that is only possible if he was not looking! There was nothing my friend could do, the truck turned and we hit the side at around 50mph (80k).

There were no airbags and the front of the car was destroyed, the dash actually came & hit me in the face, just under my chin and cracked everything up to my forehead. Lower jaw, upper jaw, cheekbone, eye orbits, nasal everything... it was not pretty.
Botched surgery caused me to need 3 more to adjust my upper jaw to what the idiots had done to the lower by mistake, all because of "god" complexes of certain doctors & the department in general.
Let's just say I do not recommend "teaching hospitals", part of a local university.
My other serious injury was to my brain, I have a frontal lobe TBI which is a real pain in the ass to say the least.
I'm not sure what you know of TBI (Traumatic brain injury), but it is a a serious problem with no solution, every victim will be affected slightly differently and it is invisible, so people just think we are rude, mean, all kinds of things that are associated with bad behavior. That leaves us open to discrimination and more problems. I am 'lucky' (Hurts to say that, because I really don't feel lucky!!) that I was highly functioning before so I compensate well in stress free situations, but it doesn't take too much to make me rattle me. Friends and family relations are strained, I am also really not the same person I was before, I like different music, different people, I dislike some friends and activities...
SO, I use cannabis for pain relief, which helps me a lot. I can do more things with less frustration and it makes me feel less pain to the point where I can think before I act or speak - a common trait with head injuries that can get us into a lot of trouble.
It also helps with anxiety, stress, makes me tolerant and compassionate.
I hope that wasn't too much info lol
Painful topic, once I start it's hard to stop the flow of words, I don't let them out often anymore.
To finish that up, 99.9% of people have no idea when they meet me if for just a few minutes, I hide it well, but after awhile it starts to show that I may not be in complete control of my thoughts, words and actions.
Cannabis gives me as much of those abilities as I can get, no other medication I tried even came close. 

I asked about Strains:
It depends what you mean by brain pain
Headaches? mental fatigue?
I am not the best guy for this, my brain is in hyper vigilance mode due to a TBI, so I can intake massive amounts of any indica with no negative effects. Makes me sleepy, but so does having a TBI.
What they do to me is different from what they do to most ppl.
I avoid sativas cuz they make me even more hyper vigilant, jumpy, annoying ... lol

If I had to name one strain for most brain issues, anxiety, epilepsy... -->Sensi Star. It covers a wide range of issues, seizures are one of them, which I do not have, but the same soothing effect it gives an epileptic, it can provide to me.  Hope that helps a bit 
...
Hi Georgia,
Secrets are safe with me
I hope the neuro can provide some good info, that sort of thing is complicated for sure. I have a brain injury so whenever I have issues with my eyes, speech, tingles, nerve pain, twitches... it is hard to know from where it actually starts.
I know an epileptic that swears he can take a few drops of Sensi Star tincture at the onset of a seizure (wife puts it under his tongue) and he almost instantly stops the seizures! Sensi Star may be the right strain for you, although they do have slightly different effects on each person.
Tinctures or eating it may also have an added benefit over inhaling for your purpose. I hope you find the strain you need

In between these e mail, we shared cute photos, jokes, toons, informative Cannabis info and Chris always supported my toons and work. He went even further to help me heal by sharing his advice on Hemp Products > Good for the BRAIN! - he sent me some AWESOME Hemp oil and that AMAZING honey  (by mr. Cookie - Brain) that is a terrific appetite stimulant! Helped me pack on a few pounds, after surgery I lost another 14!   I needed it. He still sends me tips and info for arthritis - something we also share.

That is all I will share with all of you...  it has been one of the best lessons for me,  you can make real, special friendships on FB. 
Strangers are willing to help!  ASK! Who knew!?
♥ You might be blessed to even meet them in real life! Chris thanked me over the years for inspiration.. I often wonder when someone comes into our lives is it for our advantage or theirs? BOTH. We are here to serve, help, assist, and share with each other.

Do you see love in that photo? I do ;-)  
Not the kind of love that first comes to mind, but one of two people who care for each other and want to help each other.   

All this week I keep thinking who knew, 4 years ago FB Friends you made would become real life friends. A drawing you did would be turned into glass by other artists?
 WHO knew!?  A caterpillar turned into butterfly.

 ONE LOVE! 
 Brought together by a PLANT! 

I hope Chris and I continue to be even better friends as the years go on, he really has been a life/sanity saver for me the past few years and I am blessed to call him friend.
I grateful Chris and his bud (also a nice guy - got to meet him too at the EXPO) - are still here with us today 
Lucky me!
xox <><

*** I discuss many blogs with my guys, and sometimes special friends before I publish.. I got a 'that seems pretty personal..'   WHY? Because I express  love for a friend, another human? Too often all we hear is negative. It surrounds us. We hate this and that...  I have no more room or time for it. Not a day goes by in this house were we don't say I love you to each other...  Storm and I every time he leaves or says goodbye - he throws in an I love you!  What an awesome way to end a conversation. ;-) Until we see that person again.
I'm done, If you make me happy your going to know it! I don't care if the world knows it. 
 Maybe if Chris and I hung out more, I'd see more of the side he mentions -  I have a hard time imagining (because he has only ever been nice to me) even then - because he shared with me,  I KNOW to be patient & understanding,  we are all far from perfect. 

We should share with people - It avoids a lot of guessing. ♥

Negative Vibes - No thanks.

As amazing as the EXPO was I did have 2 encounters that did leave me feeling ... disappointed.  Both times it was people I know and like  complaining to me about something.  The first a friend I had not seen is a LONG time and I was elated at just to see her! Only to go over and immediately be drawn into a negative conversation about seeds...   ?   My first thought - Yikes, welcome to the expo.  I walked away and let it go.  Later again I did not get my usual hello or even smile so, trying not to ‘assume’ I contacted once again via e mail when home* (In the past I felt nothing but joy when I see that person - so yes, I was confused and a bit hurt - silly me) That, then turned into bashing someone completely different even after I asked them not to. WTF?

The last day,  I had someone come and complain about the painted boobies and how they should be ashamed, it’s Marco’s fault, blah blah blah...  Oh my goodness GIVE me a BREAK!  I was tired, people might forget that I’m sill not well - and that is awesome, it helped me just do what I felt I need to do,  but I’m not and the last thing I needed or WANTED was a ‘friend’  pointing his finger and raising his voice at me  (I will say my son was also there and  ALSO did not appreciate it) because I did not share his opinion on  painted boobies.  I did tell him I thought he was wrong, he wanted to put the blame on someone not even associated with the girls.  Just someone else to blame? 

I don’t think so.
So yes, I quickly and abruptly ended the conversation and walked away. 
THAT was not the time or place and why me?  Really?

Once home and cooled off I made the attempt to talk about it - why?  Because I actually care about the person I had words with.. but even then the messages turned from painted breast to  $$$, marbles, and it appears someone was just plain miserable.  He ended blaming me for his terrible experience at the EXPO. 
I guess if you have to blame someone,  why not.  So be it.

But you know what... I get it. We are all struggling in many ways, some financial, mental and physical being the worst, IMO and relationships, live and  online, everyone is dealing with something. EVERYONE. 
It’s not always easy to stay positive.  <3
It’s not necessary to be nasty either.

I am thankful for a conversation I had with my friend Ivan just earlier that day...
Don't Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you.  What others say and do is a projection of their own beliefs.

When I read the message and saw that it went far beyond just painted nipples, I decided to let it go. I have no control of others anger or opinions. What I do have control over is my own actions and behaviors. 

I don’t want to GOSSIP. 
I don’t want to hear how much you ‘hate’ someone and I don’t want to hear about negative stuff when I am surrounded by awesome, positive and LOVE.  
Why the heck would I?

I did not ruin his day. He ruined his own experience. 

All  this negative bashing is a distraction. No wonder Cannabis is still not legal when we are so easily distracted and determined to complain about something instead of focusing on the REAL problems.  

I wanted to scream - “I really don’t give a flying Fu*k about purple nipples!!!“
Hee hee, looking back now glad I did not. 

We forget people are dying for this plant. Going to jail over this plant and yes in our own country - soon to be made criminals for growing this plant that people were told they could grow in the first place. So really,  I don’t care,  and why do you?  They are just breasts- we see much worse every day on television!  I met the artist - super talented and to him it is just a canvas - much like to a Dr. it is a Body.  I even met the girls in the bathroom. Nice girls.   Compared to ALL the AMAZING people and things I saw -  they (boobies) never even crossed my mind.  Storm, well they made him smile.  Made my son smile just to see boobies.  LOL  Why not. I know he was not alone. 

So go ahead complain about boobies and marbles and lack $$$, and even how I ruined the EXPO for you if it makes you feel better. I know it is not true.

Me - I shall stick to trying to remain positive and  focus on the PLANT.  

xox <><

Well it's here and although I woke up feeling stressed today with the surgery being so close I found myself focusing more on recovery. I've already starting the healing process! I am drawing myself AFTER surgery already! ;) LOL

It has been 3 years. Steadily progressing the past year has been very frightening with the degree that it has escalated. 
I have stopped going out. Socializing in general, going to church, visiting friends and I hope that that will all be over very soon, not to mention I will start to feel better. I can't help but think of many who have a disability like this that does not go away, or many that suffer from far worse. ;(
With this surgery there is hope!   If God has decided to grace me with surgery that will tame this twitch I shall be creatively grateful! Pencils sharpened! 
I'm going to rest my mind, focus on where I want to go and how I want to get there. Peacefully. Creatively.
So with only one more sleep - it is very clear what matters most to me:
 It is NOT Cannabis, not $$$, not drawing, no- not even my dogs... 
The love I feel for my husband and the best son in the entire universe (you can't go any further) who have supported me on this rough ride - and it has not always been cannabliss - I can tell you that! I look forward to being better and having good times with my guys! 
Fish to catch, stuff to design, Norm to build, Drawings to do! Crafts to craft! 
Dogs to play with!  Adventures to be had!  I have SEEDs to sow! 

This is my official last post for a bit ;-) I will play it by ear (or brain) lol  and blog when better. xox ♥☮☝

Remember to plant the seed of Cannabis education!!! 
Love
Georgia xox 

If I said thinking about surgery I was not frightened, I'd be a LIAR .
Every now and then it hits me,  as the day goes on and I have several twitch attacks and a head ACHE since the moment my brain registers it is awake.. the fear disappears and I know this has to be done.  I am getting my Zen Den ready! 
Determined to surround myself with all things I love  and keep it simple I have a few key essentials:
- my ipod with meditation music - lots of Om mani padme hum going to be happening ;D.
-T.V. & DVD player  and of course my box sets of Warner Brother cartoons! Watched a few of my favs. last night! Has made me feel good since I was a kid!
-I made a 'positive vibes board' & complimentary pins (can't tell you too much about it, as it is a very cool and up coming craft)!!  I hope to stick it with ideas, photos and more  to keep me inspired & focused. 
-A book that I have read before (I'm not going to strain my brain in any way)  Our Lady of the Lost and Found  < click to read more. It is inspiring, fun, interesting and I find the entire concept pretty cool.  I love a good book and have found that reading this one - I am easily drifting off on inspired ideas..  I also have The Pot Book and am expecting  Hempology 101  in the mail by Ted Smith any day ! So I will have some material for CC Cartoons - Not that I ever seem to be a at a lack for material;-) Also the Bible ♥
-OF course - I have my supply of pencils, paper, note pads and ink! Ready to rock! 
Buddha & beside him my hemp ball, my mini ROOR, my Plenty by my bedside and a dish of healing herb - without it I do not know how I'd have got through these past few years! 

So I'm ready! Storm has been -as always fantastic, from helping mop to more <3 The only think I'm  'upset' about is I have to keep the girls locked out of my bedroom for 2 weeks. Should be interesting. I am so ready for this healing process to begin. * after a difficult day yesterday - this toon came to me last night and made me giggle so I drew it to give to my Dr. before surgery - Note* Right side please! LOL  I hope he has a sense of humor. 
Last Post tomorrow for 2 weeks peeps. I am shutting down.  <3

Weight loss is one of the biggest magic bullets around.  Take this pill and you'll be thin. IF only. WAKE up Sheeple!!!
If that was the case would there be any obese people? No
I am sick and tired of advertising that in very small print says results NOT typical - well you know what show us what is TYPICAL so we can make an honest, educated decision ourselves. These pills that are hurting and even killing people - because of advertising that is ''false" should be banned. Stopped. Hold accountable any business that uses such false advertising. Next time you see an add that says results are not typical - MOVE on. That is a way for them to protect their ass- when you don't get the results you saw in the magazine! Stop buying the magazine, WRITE to magazines and ask them to tell you the truth if you are going to be spending your money on them.. The best thing you can do is educate yourself & your kids! Teach them about photoshop (some neat examples below), false advertising and to research ANY medication- pills- herbal or synthetic that they plan on putting into their one beautiful body! xox    
From the photos below - even the beautiful they touch up!
No such thing as perfection so why lie?  Teach love comes in all shapes, colors and moles! 
☮❤☝

More and more older people are turning back to cannabis! Why? Because although old they are far from stupid!  As we age we go to the Dr. and are given pills for our aches and pains.. they come with age for  most of us. That is life, happy to still be a part of it. 
Unfortunately, as we continue to age we are prescribed more pills for each ache and pain, sleep problems, stress, tired-- the list is endless.  Chemical cocktails, add to this already deadly mix- the fact that we forget! Accidental overdoes is a common problem with the aged.
That does not just happen to older people- it can happen to us all when not feeling well or distracted. It is not a problem with cannabis.  There is a 'home' in Isreal where Cannabis is handed out to patients who need it and benefit from it and because of -LIVING proof- it is becoming even more common. The next generation under the boomers - I was born in 64
are watching our parents being drugged for this and that. No wonder so many are turning back to something they KNOW makes them feel better- Still gives them a desire to live! Watch this short vid. 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D0VG3prgCDc
*if you click the CC box on the bottom you will get subtitles!
 It is just one of many examples! It is NEVER too late to try and feel better and that is our right! Share this with your parents! 
*Moderation. As much as I talk about anti booze- I do know several people who have always been able to have 'a drink'.  A drink after a long day - to take the edge off.. relax, unwind with a glass of wine. A (ONE) drink. EVERYTHING in moderation! My husbands dad was well into his 80's and said a shot of rum- kept his blood flowing. One shot - that was it. Usually in his evening coffee.  He died because of complications due to a car accident, it was not the rum - and he was by far one of the 'SHARPEST' pencils in the box. KEEP IN MIND, studies show that alcohol is more damaging to the body and brain than marijuana.
*the bong- Storm and I went to a great little new store  - http://www.thekockydog.ca/
nice to not have to drive to TO. for stuff.. any how I spotted this bong (a giant penis) and had to giggle! I said "who buys this..." and Storm said -"NOT YOU!"  LOL  so I thought I'd have fun with this toon! Of course I thought of the sippy cup* my friend Sue has a photo on FB with her and this cup and it makes me crack up every time I see it. Life is about having fun and feeling good. Not work, work till you die. So have a laugh and educate your elders about Cannabis!  <><   XOX

I saw this cute stick figure drawing on line and was inspired to re-draw. I like the message.
My mind is full these days. Looking forward to meeting with the surgeon (although -no lies- a little nervous), and of course there is always other stuff.  LIFE. Up and DOWN
Last week Storms hearing aid broke - but when he told me, for once it did not stress us out as he had purchased  an extra years warranty at his last visit for  almost $400.oo!  So we thought- I was called this week (so much for client patient privledge also- Storm being the client who paid for everything himself - yet I was called) was informed - "oh, that was just for one hearing aid" ... clearly WE miss understood.
And when I called to question I was verbally yelled at, was told  (meaning Storm) "perhaps he should learn to read".  Adding insult to injury.  
Storm finally called him as he still had not bothered to call Storm - only to be just as offended by this "professional".  He also denied (lied) to Storm and said he did not yell at me or say anything. I was literally shaking after our phone conversation - which was in fact BULLYING on an adult level.  
I had to let it go I don't need the stress. BUT I can't not let it go . This man is in my community and most of his clients are older disabled clients.  IS this how he will treat them - when something is not explained clearly? Will he yell at them when they ask for an explanation?  I have many elderly friends in this community - many who I met through church and care for very much- the thought of one of them experiencing this - is concerning.   If one other person is spared this treatment - GOOD!  YES, I realize it is his word against mine. We have no reason to lie. It is the last thing we need to worry about. 
I was so upset I was going to post it on FB - but I have too many people - disabled that would be disgusted. 
That's it - we wrote it off. 
At least the seed has been planted - people made aware- they might not believe me - I don't care, HE will NOW have to PROVE otherwise - and EXPLAIN properly to patients,  provide CLEAR, professional paperwork and  God wiling - be a better person. 
Unfortunately Storm is out almost $400. and still has no hearing in the one ear. ;-(

Today I have spent time with the dogs, Daisy especially with a ball being forced into my ribs as I TRY to draw-  is teaching me to be mindful. The toon is with Tequila - as she is getting old she just likes to sit beside me and look. I look at her and I see Peace. I pat her and I feel peace.  I wish everyone could have a dog. 
I also better understand the phrase the more I know people (like this hearing aid guy) the more I like my dogs.

Now back to work on Snoop lion.
xox <>< 

Someone questioned my recent decision to "clean out my friendship closet..."  was it a wise move?  Looking back over a year later. YES.  Do I miss them ? YES!  And I still think of them often. I do not think of why we stopped being friends rather I try to think only of the good memories that we had before.  Time changes everything.  Experience can change everything. As in relationships like marriage - friends can grow and go in different directions. What I no longer want is a friend has become very clear over time.   I will no longer sit around and gossip about people - judge them for what they have or don't have - I also don't want to sit around and DRINK anymore to be social. Those days for me are done. Sometimes your friends are at a different place.  So you either move on or stay and not be true to yourself or your friend.  I decided to move on. 
All you can do is try to do what is best for yourself. Do what it takes to make yourself a better person sometimes when you grow you've got to go it alone.  I don't  'hate' anyone that I was once friends with - EVERYONE teaches us something and to be friends in the first place we must have had a lot of fun at one point!  BUT when its time to move on - it's time to move on - as with a job, a career, relationship, friendship. 
So yes, I still miss and think of them often,  No- I do not regret moving on. 
It's all a part of life.
I do only try to surround myself now with those that lift me higher - in the heart and mind. That is where it matters most.   xox   <>< 

I've watched documentaries on the Amazon and how we go in and destroy. Simple. 
Many medicines are derived from Plants found all over the world. Cannabis just one of  many helpful herbs.  All plants are placed on the planet for all people. SIMPLE.
How many are we?  Educate someone today! 
Side note: My baby bro. (by one year) is spending a few days here with me.  He himself admitted he had no idea the scale of Cannabis education until a few short days spent here. LOL - TRUST me thats not because we walk around all day with a doobie hanging out our mouth  - it is because we take Cannabis very seriously in this home.  My brother quickly realizing we are not into stoner jokes or mentality  when it comes to our medicine. 
But again it just showed/reminded me - unless you live it you don't know - unless you seek the truth your still caught up in the reefer madness. 

If you had a child that relied on it for their quality of life you would take it very seriously also. I can't help but think of the Hyde family who have decided - no more tests, no more pain for Cashy - they are going to give him RSO and treat him at home. My heart is with them, prayers and HOPE.  
I have to admit I have 'lost it' a few times with people. Someone contacted me saying their license had expired and they needed to get re-signed cause they were growing and have small kids could I give them  our Dr.s name so they can get signed. 
I asked him if he had recently been diagnosed with a TERMINAL illness.  I was pissed. Still am kinda - not at the person - I actually like him as a person -Im more angry at the mindset. He has kids - all healthy I am guessing.  - SERIOUSLY!?  Stop and think.  

Truth be told. Went to bed in tears last night.  
Wonder why I am doing what I am doing, when I feel we are being punished 
for what we believe in.  
Worse - being punished because of others ignorance.  
Because of a Plant...  saving our sons life. 
Still feeling very.. sad. Disappointed.  Then I look at my Storm.  

I know why I AM doing what I AM doing.  For 100% PURE LOVE
And when you have LOVE you have all you need.
Everything happens for a reason.   

<><

Really - where does it get us? The worst possible case scenario IMO -  is DEATH.  So if it's not going to kill you - It may hurt but YOU learn from each hurt. You learn not to do it again & you become stronger and stand up for what you believe in.  My feeling can be hurt over and over - It won't kill me.  As a mater of fact - I may shed some tears, ask Why?
To LEARN. We are all her to learn and MAKE this world a better place. NOT judge - Too many are so quick to judge now a days - yet we all walk a fine line - WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES.  To pass judgement on someone that is using a medicine that is physically helping them so they do NOT suffer - be it a PLANT or a PILL is a crime.  I WILL NEVER wish what Storm has on a living sole ever - but I have to say - it has crossed my mind several times -  IF it was YOUR kid you would be singing a different tune/toon!  I find it hard to believe any parent under the same circumstances to want to give their child chemicals over a natural plant that is  helping them - once you do the research.  So - I do worry for a bit but my faith being strong - whatever problem sooner or later I say Is in God's hands. He has not failed me yet. Espeically not when I am defending the love of my family. I have been blessed with my guys, husband and son.  I like to think I am kind, helpful and caring but like anyone Don't F*&^% with my family.  Don't harm my guys and don't take food out of our mouths and we'll be fine.  
As for the world ending - I'm not going to worry. LOL - I believe the Myans were just making the date that Cannabis is finally legal! AMEN!
 Matthew 6:34
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
*I know many do not believe in the bible - I admit I do not take it literally, you can't - if so everyone that has ever eaten a lobster is going to hell.  - I feel it is a wonderful book to read and learn and if you believe it or NOT - It's true - why worry - tomorrow will be here and we take it one step at a time.  The bible - brings me comfort 
It soothes my soul and leads me to greener pastures!   Punn intended.
<><       xox