Here I am ! In all my twitching glory.
I have a friend who e mails me, subject line:
It makes me smile.
I have a condition that has worsened over the past 3 years. As you might be aware I had surgery in Nov. to try to correct and figure out why. Surgery was not a complete success. It did help with some pain and I am grateful for that! But... 'it' still is here and it has it’s moments.
When I have attacks (as you can see) It messes with my head literally. It is electric signals and we do not know why, usually something putting pressure on the brain.
Lets just say it’s not been fun.
I want so desperately to move on.
Right now I focus on just trying to get better, it seems to me this recovery has taken a very long time - or should I just admit that this might be how I shall be. That, is still not so easy. It takes time and I am getting there.
I am tired. Tired of being sick and determined to just start to move on.
Self conscious - YOU BET! I’m human. I’m a woman. At one time I was considered quite a hottie, who did not leave the house if my hair was a mess - so LOL - I am humbled.
I embrace wrinkles! I will never have cosmetic surgery, but the physical twitch and the reaction I get from others some times (must remember only human too) is ... disheartening.
So, for selfish reasons I have done this blog...
See me now.
Love me or leave me.
Its just a twitch. I am NOT crazy ;-)
Although we are all crazy. WE have to be to be a part of this planet.
I know, I look ‘crazy’ sometimes though.
Yes, I also still have pain when happening.
I am going to try to be ready for one of my “doozies” as I so lovingly call them, be all set up, bong ready to go - so you can see, when I am at my worse - I have a Puff from my bong and in a few moments sometimes seconds it can stop my twitch! That is AWESOME! If only for a few seconds. My face hurts from twitching all day, the entire head, I believe mostly from exhaustion, constantly moving facial muscles are not fun.
Thank God for Breaks. Some days I medicate every couple of hour other days I medicate several times an hour! I do NOT take any other medication for this condition and will NOT - especially when it cannot be diagnosed. I BELIEVE Cannabis is my best, and safest option right now and I Thank GOD for it. For Me and my son (always).
What is Cannabis doing for me:
Gives me physical (almost instant) breaks from my most painful attacks.
Helps me keep a positive attitude.
Keeps me going & creating and not focusing on the negative, I have negative, trust mel
Keeps me able to eat (serious issues with appetite also when all this started).
HELPS me sleep and not lay there and think and worry.
Keeps me physically active!
Easing my stress over my son and his illness - easing his pain and life.
NO WONDER I DRAW this awesome PLANT and care so much about it.
Actually, when I did my first blog it would NOT load - I tried for HOURS!
Gave up - not meant to be.
I speak from the heart each time and always will. After loading Scruffy’s vid this a.m.,
I tried again. There are 2 first blogs. LOL
This was my first I want to share it because I really mean what I am saying,
and want to say thank you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-B7pqBotOug&feature=youtu.be
The second I figure was more professional, I also could not load it up at the time, they are both a couple of weeks old and I am happy to say that I am feeling even better! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jnh6c3KH8a0
I hope & pray that with time I will continue to feel better and heal. But for now ...this is me. Love me or leave me, I don't care - but PLEASE help me continue to educate people about Cannabis - Especially as a medicine for children!!!
Whew, now thats out of the way embrace the crazy!
I like to think that people just think I’m winking at them all the time.
Gets them wondering. xox <><Thank you for your continued good vibes, well wishes and prayers.Always appreciated. ❤❤❤