Paranoid. It is just another excuse - 'pot smokers are paranoid!' YES of course they're paranoid!  Wouldn't you be? Arrested every 45 seconds? I know of people now who have been arrested for a roach! NOT EVEN a joint. What a joke. Cannabis is a money maker on so many levels. Who is making the most money? Dealers? Well yes they are, but only because it is illegal. But look at who is really making a lot of money... jails, lawyers, banks, police...
to bust someone for a roach. Just think for a second - not as someone who is either for or against cannabis but as someone with a rational brain. Imagine how much it costs to bust someone for a roach - not even a joint. Police hours, paper work, lawyers, court costs - jail! HOW much does it cost? Could that money not be better used? SERIOUSLY.  For a plant?
Are there not more serious issues. 
Here is something you might not know. For those who ARE legal, like my son. Dr. approved, prescribed medication for chronic pain - THAT IS WORKING - thank God ;-)  he has to fill out paper work every year... this I don't understand. It is not like he is getting better. I wish he was. His paper work clearly states progressive to terminal, chronic pain, yet because of Bull%^%$  paper work  that has to be filled every year- and if you know anything about the program - it takes 10 weeks to get your paper work back and once we never got it back for months- well when the paper work expired - my son is not considered legal by the police. 
He could be arrested - FOR HIS MEDICINE!!  As a mom I am pissed! THIS IS NOT fair and I'm mad. Im sad, I'm disgusted. I try to stay positive, determined but somedays it wears me down... Do we not have enough to deal with?  Really? ARE we bad people? Are we criminals? Are we hurting anyone?    It causes us stress. Like we need anymore. 
So yes- that is when I feel paranoid, I fear for my son's safety.  For his medicine. 
It is days like this that I can think of nothing funny to draw but instead tearfully, ask God for strength and courage to continue to stand up for something that is very wrong even though I've lost some friends and am constantly  faced with roadblocks and bullshit.
I also pray for forgiveness (forgive them Lord for they know not what they do..) how many times must God hear this prayer. Some might get angry with me that I ask this regarding Cannabis. Think about it. Over a plant.  Being put to death over a plant? Suffering needlessly - over a plant?  I believe it is worthy of asking for forgiveness. For a seed HE gave us. 
Time to shut down from the comp and draw. Pray.  xox <><
 
 
Finally my much awaited test results today. MRI looks o.k.    I breath a sigh of relief.  Unfortunately I am no closer to knowing what is going on.  I admit my Dr. appeared just as confused and frustrated as I am. I felt bad for him.  I like him. Even though he does not know what is wrong with me. LOL   I think this is part of the battle.. liking your Dr. feeling like you an actually talk to them. "A strange case"  I'm too tired to think about that. The twitch continues with MEGA twitch making an appearance from time to time so I know I'll be thinking about it from time to time. 
I came home to a clean house! Mom's are you with me!? My FLoORS WASHED! Bed made, bathroom cleaned! The entire time I was away my amazing son cleaned our house. I am still speechless. I got a big hug and I love you when we talked about the Dr.s.  He made my day.
We cheered with apple juice.      I love my son.  
SO .. F%$#! TWITCH!!!  You steal too much fun from me as it is.  No tumor! AMEN!
You know when I was in my car I was thanking God over and over and over. I hope he heard me ;-)

I am drawing and cleaning my studio, going to chant a little Om Mani padme hum and later tonight sneak in some time with my Giant Laughing BUDDHA!!  I can not wait till he is on my wall Glowing... with LOVE. At first I was going to sell him outright..  No way. I'm enjoying the time I spend with him in painting meditation. He makes me smile think and  remember all things good and that how lucky I am to be able to be here yet another day;-))
It goes without saying I got a great toon idea from the Dr.s office.. be drawing too.

11/11/11  Miss you big time pop. Love George. & Don. xox
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Taken march 2011 xox My Birthday