What Am I?
I am sick and tired of Health Canada and Steven Harper saying everyone they
provided licenses to are CRIMINALS.
WHY now? After providing thousands with permission to grow for years?
Because they REALIZE that YES indeed Cannabis will become a BILLION dollar industry and they can make $$$. LOT's of MONEY.
Who cares about the Health in Health Canada?
It is ONLY about money... for them.
For US it is about a life saving medicine that has changed our lives for the better!
ONE that WE were prescribed by a Dr. (not paid for) & granted permission from Health Canada to have a Designated Grower and provide Storm with his own medicine.
YES WE have invested MUCH. Blood , sweat & tears and $$$.
You would too if your only son was suffering from a terminal to progressive, no treatment no cure, chronic pain disease! We are after 7 years finally just now making up for all of it and providing for Storm and myself perfectly.
NOW Health Canada expects us to stop providing for ourselves - as we have for the past 7 years. We are expected to stop and start paying for cannabis -* the amount Storm would need, according to Health Canada's prediction of prices would be:
10 grams / day @ $5 = $18,200.00/year
@$3 = $10,920.00/year
@ $7 / gram = $25,480.00 < what H.C. suggests.
ARE YOU F*CKING KIDDING ME? - people wonder why I swear. ;)
We can not afford it. Could you?
For something our DG is now producing for pennies?
I think NOT.
Simply because they ASSume, we are all criminals?
I know what I am and it is NOT a criminal.
All cops are Pigs.
All fat people are lazy.
All blonds are dumb.
All priests are pedophiles.
All muslims are terrorists.
All women are easy.
All men are assholes.
All politicians are criminals .. (hmmmmmmmm - verdict not yet in on this one.)
^ALL WRONG! ^ All negative, uneducated stigmas/stereo types.
This is no exception. It is wrong.
Criminals? Gardeners!? That is what they are!
GROWING A PLANT. A human right.
How we have survived - forever.
Who are you?!
I hope I have inspired more to do the same or at least THINK about it. We are powerful. We are Not criminals and we deserve the right to provide for ourselves as we have been for years. < Thanks to Health Canada.
Last night I went to bed in tears. Feeling completely frustrated and overwhelmed.
I had another visit with the neurologist and after the usually questions and concerns, I asked him if he actually had a diagnoses, after talking about Hemi facial spasm and Trigeminal neuralgia, the 5th and 7th nerve... No.
They cannot understand why I am having what I am and the pain associated with it.
I feel when I tell them how bad it is - it is not that they don’t believe - CLEARLY there is something going on, but I think they don’t ‘get the severity’ of it? I wonder is it because I am not in the office sobbing? Or that I don’t lie around all day feeling sorry for myself?
I can tell you, I DO feel like doing that.
I fought off tears several times in his office yesterday. IT is much harder to try to remain positive and busy and hopeful.
After the last surgery, I do feel better BUT whatever is going on is still going on and every day It MAKES me very aware that It can all be gone in an instant. I struggle with this reminder - as much as I AM REALLY grateful the new found appreciation and determination.. everyday thinking my brain is going to explode is exhausting.
These constant electrical zaps leave me feeling ‘fizzled”
My attack last week left me exhausted for 2 days.
I still have them constantly.. with a “doozie’ every now and then making an appearance.
Usually one a day. ;(
In his opinion, it is not getting better (mine too - it’s going on 4 YEARS slowly escalating)
He feels more surgery is the only opinion. The first not a complete success (it was in the fact that I’m still here! :) NOT knowing exactly what they are going in for... has me not to keen on the whole idea again - recovery itself seems daunting. Been there done that and in NO hurry to do it again.
I am frightened.
I need to take a break and think.
I wondered about sharing this... it’s time. My hand forced by someone on FB. This is my life at the moment and for what ever reason this is where I am meant to be. Happy or not.
I had a lesson last week on FB when someone was PISSED at me. Angry because I have not been responding to his messages or posts. First let me tell you having over 500o people on FB has it down falls, like messages every time you log on, I am constantly added to groups, events and my messages are never fewer than 50 every time I log on. Hard to keep up with for anyone, never mind someone who is also trying to work, be a mom, cartoonist, wife and suffers from some crazy brain thing.
I then was angry with him and asked him if he was aware I had brain surgery and have still been dealing with serious issues. No he was not.
No he does not bother to read my post, blogs etc only pissed that I did not share his website and his goings on. Yes, he apologized.
So here it is. I am not well. I have not been well for a while. I have been sicker than I have let on to most but a few are very aware of what has been going on. On top of all this I deal with other stuff, like the constant concern and battle over my sons medicine. Cannabis.
Stress added to the mixture - not good BUT unavoidable.
A growing concern with changes expected in the near future, no thanks to Health Canada.
I have hoped people would focus on my work and not my health and it appears to have worked out ;-) I can’t get mad for the lack of others understanding, awareness or even compassion at times. It says more about them than it will ever say about me. Simple.
I will end by saying that when I woke up today the first thing I did was thank God for opening my eyes and for the fact that I got out of bed.
I will NOT spend the day in bed crying, I will draw, spend the day with the girls (Storm is camping) I will celebrate every meal I am blessed with and every conversation I have. I will continue to hope I get better. I will have faith that everything does happen for a reason. All of this BTW has made me a better person.
I will also continue to use my cannabis as it numbs the pain and gives me a break if only for minutes at a time. I am grateful for it. It keeps me positive!
So why share? In hope that if ONLY one person stops and thinks before they make assumptions, judge or even aggravate - do you really know what each other is dealing with? How about we first ask ourselves that before we jump on some ones back as to why we are NOT the focus of THEIR attention.
Compassion and LOVE.
I am stronger today than I was last night.
I know why I am drawing and now I know why a few years ago we called my strip:
There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it's going to be a butterfly.R. Buckminster Fuller
A picture is worth a thousand words...
If you see love in this photo it is because it exists.
My hubby saw this photo and instantly asked “WHO is that? Looks a little close to me... “
All I could think to say is “yes, it does, that is my friend Chris.” ;) This expo was the first time Chris and I actually met and that photo taken then. We have been friends on FB since 2o10. I never saw his photo before the EXPO and had no idea what he looked like. The moment he said ‘Hi' my heart jumped - CHRIS! I thought & he is handsome too! LOL
When I first met Chris it was online, FB. He was a medical patient and had suffered a very serious accident, I knew he suffered extensive damage to his face and brain not to mention everywhere else, I had seen photos of his x-rays but I did not know much more... then after a few posts, curiosity got the better of me and I asked. I am learning to be BLUNT - how else do you find stuff out.
Well, the rest is history. A history filled with questions, likes, comments, shares and more.
Chris, for some reason I decided to trust and share a few details about my own head pain long before many others even knew what I was dealing with, asking him what strain he suggested for head pain, a few things... I still do ;-) Just the other day I asked: Do you swear more?
I as you might know if you pay attention to this blog, I have been frightened to say the least, hard not to when you are dealing with something and Dr.s can’t seem to figure it out so. I ask, he answers. It has been a God send for me.
That makes me giggle, Chris and I have a different opinion on God - BUT even that we put aside to discuss other more important stuff! < How it should be.
Who else do you ask? If you don’t know from experience - YOU don’t get it!
He gets it. Explaining things I am experiencing.
I was thrilled when I heard he was coming to the EXPO! I really consider him a friend and I felt it! I know he cares for me and I him and we just became friends on FB and because of Cannabis! How cool is that?
That being said I did ask Chris If I could share a few details. I was going to ask him to write a blog but I thought - no, better to see his answers, up front & honest. Just as he shared with me and I am so grateful he did.
Below a few photos, I borrowed from his profile, and a few of our messages... ;-) I asked Chris to share his accident and he did: I have my card due to a very serious car vs. snow removal truck in 2003.I was a passenger that had a 10 wheel dump truck full of snow turn in front of us, crossing our path. He turned illegally (double yellow line) into a parking lot to dump his snow (illegally on private property).
He claimed he did not see us, but that is only possible if he was not looking! There was nothing my friend could do, the truck turned and we hit the side at around 50mph (80k).
There were no airbags and the front of the car was destroyed, the dash actually came & hit me in the face, just under my chin and cracked everything up to my forehead. Lower jaw, upper jaw, cheekbone, eye orbits, nasal everything... it was not pretty.
Botched surgery caused me to need 3 more to adjust my upper jaw to what the idiots had done to the lower by mistake, all because of "god" complexes of certain doctors & the department in general.
Let's just say I do not recommend "teaching hospitals", part of a local university.
My other serious injury was to my brain, I have a frontal lobe TBI which is a real pain in the ass to say the least.
I'm not sure what you know of TBI (Traumatic brain injury), but it is a a serious problem with no solution, every victim will be affected slightly differently and it is invisible, so people just think we are rude, mean, all kinds of things that are associated with bad behavior. That leaves us open to discrimination and more problems. I am 'lucky' (Hurts to say that, because I really don't feel lucky!!) that I was highly functioning before so I compensate well in stress free situations, but it doesn't take too much to make me rattle me. Friends and family relations are strained, I am also really not the same person I was before, I like different music, different people, I dislike some friends and activities...
SO, I use cannabis for pain relief, which helps me a lot. I can do more things with less frustration and it makes me feel less pain to the point where I can think before I act or speak - a common trait with head injuries that can get us into a lot of trouble.
It also helps with anxiety, stress, makes me tolerant and compassionate.
I hope that wasn't too much info lol
Painful topic, once I start it's hard to stop the flow of words, I don't let them out often anymore.
To finish that up, 99.9% of people have no idea when they meet me if for just a few minutes, I hide it well, but after awhile it starts to show that I may not be in complete control of my thoughts, words and actions.
Cannabis gives me as much of those abilities as I can get, no other medication I tried even came close.
I asked about Strains: It depends what you mean by brain pain
Headaches? mental fatigue?
I am not the best guy for this, my brain is in hyper vigilance mode due to a TBI, so I can intake massive amounts of any indica with no negative effects. Makes me sleepy, but so does having a TBI.
What they do to me is different from what they do to most ppl.
I avoid sativas cuz they make me even more hyper vigilant, jumpy, annoying ... lol
If I had to name one strain for most brain issues, anxiety, epilepsy... -->Sensi Star. It covers a wide range of issues, seizures are one of them, which I do not have, but the same soothing effect it gives an epileptic, it can provide to me. Hope that helps a bit
... Hi Georgia,
Secrets are safe with me
I hope the neuro can provide some good info, that sort of thing is complicated for sure. I have a brain injury so whenever I have issues with my eyes, speech, tingles, nerve pain, twitches... it is hard to know from where it actually starts.
I know an epileptic that swears he can take a few drops of Sensi Star tincture at the onset of a seizure (wife puts it under his tongue) and he almost instantly stops the seizures! Sensi Star may be the right strain for you, although they do have slightly different effects on each person.
Tinctures or eating it may also have an added benefit over inhaling for your purpose. I hope you find the strain you need
In between these e mail, we shared cute photos, jokes, toons, informative Cannabis info and Chris always supported my toons and work. He went even further to help me heal by sharing his advice on Hemp Products > Good for the BRAIN! - he sent me some AWESOME Hemp oil and that AMAZING honey (by mr. Cookie - Brain) that is a terrific appetite stimulant! Helped me pack on a few pounds, after surgery I lost another 14! I needed it. He still sends me tips and info for arthritis - something we also share.
That is all I will share with all of you... it has been one of the best lessons for me, you can make real, special friendships on FB. Strangers are willing to help! ASK!
♥ You might be blessed to even meet them in real life! Chris thanked me over the years for inspiration.. I often wonder when someone comes into our lives is it for our advantage or theirs? BOTH. We are here to serve, help, assist, and share with each other.
Do you see love in that photo? I do ;-)
Not the kind of love that first comes to mind, but one of two people who care for each other and want to help each other.
All this week I keep thinking who knew, 4 years ago FB Friends you made would become real life friends. A drawing you did would be turned into glass by other artists?
WHO knew!? A caterpillar turned into butterfly.
Brought together by a PLANT!
I hope Chris and I continue to be even better friends as the years go on, he really has been a life/sanity saver for me the past few years and I am blessed to call him friend.
I grateful Chris and his bud (also a nice guy - got to meet him too at the EXPO) - are still here with us today
*** I discuss many blogs with my guys, and sometimes special friends before I publish.. I got a 'that seems pretty personal..' WHY? Because I express love for a friend, another human? Too often all we hear is negative. It surrounds us. We hate this and that... I have no more room or time for it. Not a day goes by in this house were we don't say I love you to each other... Storm and I every time he leaves or says goodbye - he throws in an I love you! What an awesome way to end a conversation. ;-) Until we see that person again.
I'm done, If you make me happy your going to know it! I don't care if the world knows it.
Maybe if Chris and I hung out more, I'd see more of the side he mentions - I have a hard time imagining (because he has only ever been nice to me) even then - because he shared with me, I KNOW to be patient & understanding, we are all far from perfect.
We should share with people - It avoids a lot of guessing. ♥
Negative Vibes - No thanks.
As amazing as the EXPO was I did have 2 encounters that did leave me feeling ... disappointed. Both times it was people I know and like complaining to me about something. The first a friend I had not seen is a LONG time and I was elated at just to see her! Only to go over and immediately be drawn into a negative conversation about seeds... ? My first thought - Yikes, welcome to the expo. I walked away and let it go. Later again I did not get my usual hello or even smile so, trying not to ‘assume’ I contacted once again via e mail when home* (In the past I felt nothing but joy when I see that person - so yes, I was confused and a bit hurt - silly me) That, then turned into bashing someone completely different even after I asked them not to. WTF?
The last day, I had someone come and complain about the painted boobies and how they should be ashamed, it’s Marco’s fault, blah blah blah... Oh my goodness GIVE me a BREAK! I was tired, people might forget that I’m sill not well - and that is awesome, it helped me just do what I felt I need to do, but I’m not and the last thing I needed or WANTED was a ‘friend’ pointing his finger and raising his voice at me (I will say my son was also there and ALSO did not appreciate it) because I did not share his opinion on painted boobies. I did tell him I thought he was wrong, he wanted to put the blame on someone not even associated with the girls. Just someone else to blame?
I don’t think so.
So yes, I quickly and abruptly ended the conversation and walked away.
THAT was not the time or place and why me? Really?
Once home and cooled off I made the attempt to talk about it - why? Because I actually care about the person I had words with.. but even then the messages turned from painted breast to $$$, marbles, and it appears someone was just plain miserable. He ended blaming me for his terrible experience at the EXPO.
I guess if you have to blame someone, why not. So be it.
But you know what... I get it. We are all struggling in many ways, some financial, mental and physical being the worst, IMO and relationships, live and online, everyone is dealing with something. EVERYONE.
It’s not always easy to stay positive. <3
It’s not necessary to be nasty either.
I am thankful for a conversation I had with my friend Ivan just earlier that day...
Don't Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own beliefs.
When I read the message and saw that it went far beyond just painted nipples, I decided to let it go. I have no control of others anger or opinions. What I do have control over is my own actions and behaviors.
I don’t want to GOSSIP.
I don’t want to hear how much you ‘hate’ someone and I don’t want to hear about negative stuff when I am surrounded by awesome, positive and LOVE.
Why the heck would I?
I did not ruin his day. He ruined his own experience.
All this negative bashing is a distraction. No wonder Cannabis is still not legal when we are so easily distracted and determined to complain about something instead of focusing on the REAL problems.
I wanted to scream - “I really don’t give a flying Fu*k about purple nipples!!!“
Hee hee, looking back now glad I did not.
We forget people are dying for this plant. Going to jail over this plant and yes in our own country - soon to be made criminals for growing this plant that people were told they could grow in the first place. So really, I don’t care, and why do you? They are just breasts- we see much worse every day on television! I met the artist - super talented and to him it is just a canvas - much like to a Dr. it is a Body. I even met the girls in the bathroom. Nice girls. Compared to ALL the AMAZING people and things I saw - they (boobies) never even crossed my mind. Storm, well they made him smile. Made my son smile just to see boobies. LOL Why not. I know he was not alone.
So go ahead complain about boobies and marbles and lack $$$, and even how I ruined the EXPO for you if it makes you feel better. I know it is not true.
Me - I shall stick to trying to remain positive and focus on the PLANT.
Music for your blog reading enjoyment:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dzs1K3caXJk
Wow, this cartoon smacked me right in the head ;-) Awesome.
It started with a joke from my best bud Cathy.♥
I was stressed wondering what to draw for 4/20?!
The universal day of
Celebration for Cannabis!!!
Grown from a seed.
Made by *GOD.
(*original patent holder)
Medical, Recreational, Hemp, Food, Fuel..
It's the day and I want to say THANK YOU!
I have said it so many times, I thank God daily for this Plant!
Give us this Day our daily Bud... <3 Wow. YES, I read recently how powerful that prayer is; Give us this dayour daily bread, -not thanks for yesterday, or make sure I have it tomorrow. Give us THIS day. Focus on today.
.. and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us,
and that ^ ^ ^ That simply put means ^ ^ ^ : PEACE, PEOPLE!
Religion aside... who can argue with those lines? How else are we going to get ahead, clearly WAR is not the answer! Thank you Marvin, now in my head for the rest of the day.
People all around the world who suffer over a plant. A plant less toxic than many others, proven helpful to ease pain, yet illegal and lives destroyed because of it.
WTF? O.M.God. How disappointing.
A PLANT. While others rape, kill, abuse, terrorize, suffer & starve needlessly...
enough with the bullshit distraction.
FOCUS on the REAL problems at hand.
Rise Up people! Speak up! <3 Celebrate this Plant! Let it be a symbol of change.
It all starts with a SEED!!! Life.
So.. Yes! Give us this Day our daily bud, and thank you Lord for it!
I do! Everyday! Keeping the Love of my life happy - How could I not give thanks?
Celebrate 4/20, Spread Peace and Love !!! - there are already enough assholes doing the opposite;-)xox <><
2013 Is here and I AM Thrilled!! New day, new year -new chance to get it right! I am ready, we have spent the past few days re-organizing my craft room/painting studio/guest room, when I was recovering - all stuff ended up in there - so that when I looked at it I felt anything but crafty! More like closing the door and running. Well it is done now, we also took down the tree and all the decorations! I woke up today to a clean house for January the 1st!
Cartoons waiting to be inked and colored - enough for a couple of weeks easy! I was thinking, I shall call consider last year my wake up call year, with my own health issues & surgery behind me, still on the road to recovery but more determined than ever to get better and be better. For my own sense of balance I will force myself to work on all topics I enjoy and not get consumed by the insanity that comes with Cannabis education. Since so near and dear to my heart - the topic - will be a focus that is for sure! I plan on getting more out of 2013...
More time loving less time dreaming!
More time drawing less time looking at FB!
More time focusing on positive - less time to bitch!
More time playing with the dogs- less time worrying about regular exercise!
Time to draw and then perhaps a bit of painting.
I'd like to start my year off by thanking God for ALL of it.
Every pencil, every piece of paper and every puff.
Summer is here and around this house it really means the Dog Days of Summer are upon us! I love it. I am NOT a winter person - but I love Canada so I endure;-) Summer = OUTSIDE! I have 3 dogs and they love to be outside! The pool - appears to be Daisy's own playground right now - she is the first one in it and Scruffy in her boat -long before those too is Tequila. My GROWLING, crusty, bad breath, over weight, almost blind, poops in the house when she KNOWS that it is a firecracker weekend! My LOVE Tequila. As I was drawing this toon in the gazebo she came and fell asleep beside me - as she is now, so I took the opportunity to draw her still life, thinking about what a great dog she is the entire time. Tequila is 15. She was run over by a car when younger and survived without a scratch! It was a miracle. She surfs in the pool and has used it since the day we opened it - we laugh as she will lose a good 5 lbs every summer, LOVES Halloween as much as Norm and jumps at bats! Is my master squirrel chaser and BALL fetcher - but does not give it to you, she makes you chase her around the house for it. Well she was.. Daisy seems to be faster on the fetch and rubs it in Tequilas face every time. So I've learned to throw 2 balls the first far for Daisy and the second close to Ticky. Her eyesight is failing so her ball days are almost over, she also seems to be feeling the heat a bit more.. I will love her till the day she dies and will keep going until she tells us she can't go anymore.
Right now she still tries and that is all that matters. The lessons dogs teach us. Priceless.
I need time out. Time to stop stressing and focus on what I love to do. Draw. Spend time with my family, read, & relax. DRAW.
It is at the point where my twitch has taken over. Even with botox it never stops. As the botox wears off it gets more painful and stronger. It can stop me from doing what ever I am doing and holding my breath until it passes. It is mentally and socially distracting and uncomfortable, for me and who ever is watching. I have become somewhat of a recluse. It gets stronger I get quieter. Drawing is the only thing I seem to be able to do sometimes, because I have different stages of drawing depending on how I'm feeling.
We are talking about surgery. That will be my next decision. One I am not taking lightly.
Not being a fan of hospitals or surgery anywhere in the vicinity of my brain is frightening.
Time to take drastic measures. - I have decided to seriously try to DE-STRESS. I will focus on the positive, drawing, planting the seed and being thankful that I am still alive - it's been a difficult 3 years and I have to say am a better person because of it. Yesterday after making the decision to stay off FB, I instantly felt a sense of relief. I went and drew, watched an amazing Doc. that affirmed my decision! Who knew! Great documentary
*I AM https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpVEH-Bpdes&feature=player_embedded
I told Norm I am on withdraw-lllll meaning I must draw. As much fun as all of this technology can be- it is truly a weapon of mass distraction. I think - 'I'll just go on for a few moments' and hours fly by, hours that I could be enjoying nature, family, pets and spending time truly enjoying my passion. That is how I will heal. I will of course continue to educate myself on topics that are important to me and try to share as best as I know how...
I Am most inspired by nature. Mother nature... as I see her :
You made your bed now your going to lie in it..
Well it's true. Sooner or later it's going to catch up. Like anything over time you have to be careful. I will admit I am the first one to say in the past when I have been prescribed something I took it. Simple. Not anymore.
This twitch has also become a blessing! Especially now with looking into and considering surgery (in the brain region) - yes, a blessing. I have started to eat healthier- cut out a lot of red meat and try to eat little "fast food', don't drink alcohol (yes I still from time to time crave a cold beer on a hot day and do indulge, but no where like I USE to) but now I am really careful with medication I take. I READ the side effects and try to decide IF I really need the medication and outweigh the options.
I just got over a cold and was thinking I should go to the Dr.s but sometimes you just have to let it run it's course- sometimes all your body needs is rest and good food.
That is all the medicine you need. Other times you DO need mediation.
It really is sad that so many people THINK Cannabis is so bad for you but never take into consideration prescribed medications. The cartoon says it all. FACT.
Ask yourself - have you ever been on a medication that says - do not take alcohol while using this drug? And you have? I have.
Have you ever taken a medication that says 'do not operate heavy machinery or operate a vehicle' and then drove? I have. Millions do. Daily.
So my blessing is in the form of education and realization, after all - It's not too late - I'm still breathing! LOL So before you make your bed... be careful. Research - check out your options. Cannabis may not be for you but WHY wouldn't you TRY it before you try some of these other incredibly toxic and many time addictive prescriptions? It is common sense.
It is my life, my health and I want to choose what is right for me.
What is right for ME has nothing to do with you or anyone else for that matter.
Today make your bed! Clean sheets! Cause you never know..
OH - should you overdose on Cannabis - PLEASE try to choose Healthy MUNCHIE options. xox <><
I Love Daisy's! I'll give you a daisy a day dear... (remember that song?) Even our dog is named Daisy and she is as pretty as a Daisy - HAPPY! A Daisy is a happy Flower! Tall and strong - who has not = "she loves me... she loves me not..." with a Daisy at some point in their life? So my bouquet of PEACE would definitely be Daisy's!
We can't go wrong if we plant these seeds! LOVE, HOPE and COMPASSION.
You can not help but grow GOODNESS when you plant such ideas in the minds and hearts of those you interact with.
So never mind Cannabis today (We'll be right back on track with that Monday morning!)
Plant some LOVIN' NOW! If only in your own mind and heart - it's a start!!!