Last Monday I guess I finally had the straw that broke this camels back.
I went for a test, one I had hoped and prayed would help Dr.s see what is finally going on in my head. It was not a pleasant experience to say the least. I left feeling defeated, degraded and ashamed at myself. I had questioned the test as I understood I was to have something different, I was told over and over I was wrong. I can tell you that for the first time in my life I truly felt like a piece of meat. Once home I called and confirmed I was to have a different test. Then I got a bit of 'Blah blah blah...' - and it did not make anything any better only worse. I then think I had a bit of a breakdown. I cried off and on for two days. I needed to get away.
I am blessed with a long time friend who when I asked if I could use his cottage, he offered me his home instead as no one is in it at the moment. I house sat.
I was nice to sit here too as he is a special friend - he has kept me sane these past years with paper alone!! He has supported my cartooning since day one. I could not have done it without him, well... perhaps, we find ways. His friendship for over 20+ years has always been a treasure. He knows it. LOL
To say I was 'roughing it' would be a lie. Central vac, hot tub... amazing privacy & deer!
A Sasquach!? Fire, snuggling with Poppy on my lap CD's ( o.k. - he does need to upgrade his variety!!! lol
Darkness and quite like I have not witnessed in a long time, talk about sooth the soul!
I think I made a new friend to boot! We shall see. Everything happens for a reason ;) .
I have taken photos, walked, explored a little but mostly, I have slept and drawn for 6 days and feel rested. With only Poppy for a companion we have had some fun! Today she lost a tooth. I have to admit both, too afraid to venture out after dark - she has been an awesome little pup in every way I can think of - oh well except for her obsession with the door stopper - Boooiiinnnggg, Booooiiinnnggg, Boiiinnngg!! LOL So happy she just discovered it and not when we arrived.
As much as I needed to get away, I need to return to my family -who is missing me and visa versa.
Blog and new TOONS!!! I am amazed at what I drew while away, I listened to what I thought I should draw about and I was never let down. It was not always about cannabis. It is always about humans. HIV, Future of Health Canada, A political statement that I know many of us all feel right now, a special toon with my son, and some Poppy - because - I still have a every day life...
I AM ready to continue.
Next Blog Sunday!
What Am I?
I am sick and tired of Health Canada and Steven Harper saying everyone they
provided licenses to are CRIMINALS.
WHY now? After providing thousands with permission to grow for years?
Because they REALIZE that YES indeed Cannabis will become a BILLION dollar industry and they can make $$$. LOT's of MONEY.
Who cares about the Health in Health Canada?
It is ONLY about money... for them.
For US it is about a life saving medicine that has changed our lives for the better!
ONE that WE were prescribed by a Dr. (not paid for) & granted permission from Health Canada to have a Designated Grower and provide Storm with his own medicine.
YES WE have invested MUCH. Blood , sweat & tears and $$$.
You would too if your only son was suffering from a terminal to progressive, no treatment no cure, chronic pain disease! We are after 7 years finally just now making up for all of it and providing for Storm and myself perfectly.
NOW Health Canada expects us to stop providing for ourselves - as we have for the past 7 years. We are expected to stop and start paying for cannabis -* the amount Storm would need, according to Health Canada's prediction of prices would be:
10 grams / day @ $5 = $18,200.00/year
@$3 = $10,920.00/year
@ $7 / gram = $25,480.00 < what H.C. suggests.
ARE YOU F*CKING KIDDING ME? - people wonder why I swear. ;)
We can not afford it. Could you?
For something our DG is now producing for pennies?
I think NOT.
Simply because they ASSume, we are all criminals?
I know what I am and it is NOT a criminal.
All cops are Pigs.
All fat people are lazy.
All blonds are dumb.
All priests are pedophiles.
All muslims are terrorists.
All women are easy.
All men are assholes.
All politicians are criminals .. (hmmmmmmmm - verdict not yet in on this one.)
^ALL WRONG! ^ All negative, uneducated stigmas/stereo types.
This is no exception. It is wrong.
Criminals? Gardeners!? That is what they are!
GROWING A PLANT. A human right.
How we have survived - forever.
Who are you?!
I hope I have inspired more to do the same or at least THINK about it. We are powerful. We are Not criminals and we deserve the right to provide for ourselves as we have been for years. < Thanks to Health Canada.
It's the long weekend but far from being a weekend of rest! It seems to be our weekend to get ready for the rest of the summer. We have already got so much done. I love my backyard! When we moved into out house there was a picnic table in the back yard and a little bush. THAT is it, no fence - nothing. Every year we add or do something now it is a little oasis (for us anyhow) footsteps from our door. This year we had to replace our pool liner - first time - so the first once really lasted well. It should be complete by the weekend. :-) I hope as I have invited my friend Josh (visiting from Texas) to swim! LOL - Water would be nice. We took out a railing will add new stairs and planted a big garden - Storm planted the garden - being the expert! OF course we planted a few extra tomato plants to bring some produce to the local food bank. I also want to learn how to make my own sauce! . The guys do most of it I watch and point! heee hee hee and make meals and bring drinks and keep company. In between drawing.
When we are outside the girls are out there with us Hope seems to really like the pond and like King Kong has squashed a tomato plant in the garden already. She still has to learn OUT! Of the garden. I'm looking forward to her in the pool. Tequila loves the pool and I think Hope will also. Scruffy LOVES to beat on Hope. I usually stay 'out of it' as I know soon Hope will be much bigger than Scruffy so let her dream ! ha ha Our neighbor sent over a few baby toys for Hope. That was very thoughtful of her. Well I better get my butt back outside back to work! I hope everyone has a fantastic LONG weekend - almost over! ENJOY it while you can!
9:09 a.m. Already is a GREAT DAY! !
My baby is off to his first day at work at his new job! I am so excited for himI It is a job I know he is going to love and do well at!!
I know cause I'm his mom and we know this stuff. ;-)))
I just had a great chat with my favorite cousin ;-) and my hubby is off to work on a fireplace, but when he is done it will be a work of art! Fine woodwork, What he enjoys doing. I am going to draw!! ;-)
First I want to post this one.. Last night as I started to drift off to sleep... I suddenly felt warm, ( Norm was on his 1/2 -LOL) honestly, as if I could hear whispers and it was prayer. I have a friend who always says you are always in my prayers. I know I am. But I felt as if a few people were praying ;-) A wave of peace came over me - so what did I do ? I was So inspired! I got out of bed to draw! But I did not ink till the next morning.
I tried to draw how I felt. Blessed.
Off to have a great day! ;-))
As I drifted off to sleep...
Tis the season. Everywhere I go .. tonight to vote! VOTE!!
Oh! Your the Halloween House. YES we re. Actually I is not WE it is HE.
My Hubby LOVES Halloween. Not even Halloween, he tinkers, gets all these 'things' working . It baffles my mind. REALLY . I do not go into the garage much at all. I like to be thrilled, like everyone else. This year it is all different. Just that element has added excitement for me.
How he does it amazes me! He works all day and then is in that garage all night - AND it is WORK! It is all he thinks about - you can see the little hamster running in its wheel as we sit and eat diner. Visions of pumpkins dancing through his head! NOT much else gets done.
AND it has turned into work. BUT The best part is the food bank donation.
Really - do what ever you can do to help. We won't ever charge $. I would never turn away someone that does not have a donation. Perhaps they are hungry.
Anyhow.. Norm is in his element and he is so good to me, I try to ignore the other stuff.. the mess, bones, mud, false teeth, horse testicles, mice in freezer, stiffs in my bed! And people wonder where I get my material.
Good thing I love him.
We always joke about who is going to become the next prop.
I have family visiting .. for a while ;-) I wondered this a.m. How can I help.
And it hit me perhaps I am not here to help him but he is here to help me.
That is how it should be with everyone. Helping each other. Never think you know the reason for anything. My friend Carm said let 'Go and Let God.'
If you are not helping me then you are hurting me.
It is so easy to keep people down, negative comment, jabs and digs, said to sound innocent but cut like a knife.. Think before you speak. if you have nothing nice to say - DON'T SAY IT! It's that simple!
Try it. For now I shall enjoy the tasty treats with my live in chef and we shall help each other. I am blessed for this chance to make a positive difference.
Now - halloween is around the corner and you know what that means! NORMAN is driving me nuts! Cartoons to follow. Lots of visual blog material! Boo! BOOOOO Hoooo is more like it!