Somebody to LOVE!
My little leaf look no further, millions around the world LOVE Cannabis.
Recreationally it's on the rise with women and young adults.
Why do you think that is?
Because research is showing it is safer than Alcohol and many other options.
IT is proven NOT to be a gateway drug - again studies now show, that honor belongs to - Alcohol. Think about it - Did you have a drink or a puff first? Be honest.
Medically - it is being hailed as (FINALLY getting the attention it deserves) a miracle drug - dont believe it - think it's a lie - tell that to the parents now scrambling to MOVE to a state that provides MEDICINE that STOPS their children from having seizure's, that slowly rob them of a life. I need not remind you of it's PAIN control or nausea, assists with insomnia, body twitches and MORE - don't forget it helps kill cancerous brain cells- I dare YOU to prove me wrong.
So 'Find me somebody to LOVE!....' will never be an issue with this plant.
Yep- This little plant - Has more than enough that LOVE it.
Happy Valentines day!
Norm took the day off to hang out! Making breakfast as I type!
Woot Woot! Bring it on! <>< xox
I sit and giggle that I called my strip On MY mind.. really.
Georgia, Georgia, no peace I find
Just an old sweet song keeps Georgia on my mind.
I LOVE Willie!
I also have stuff ON MY MIND.
It sure feels like it anyhow. I realized I started my blog with the cartoon Blah Blah Blog. Before I even knew what was going on was going on. June 21,2010... this is a long time. Steadily progressing then surgery, again progressing.
YES, I am thinking PLEASE LET them figure this out! I am exhausted, everyday is a challenge to continue through normal chores and experiences with a constant prodding in my head every few minutes... at the same time terrified that they will find something!
How can they not? I have asked my self this before.
Apparently this test will help see if there are any blocks or aneurysms.
Which makes me think - why the heck have I not had this already!? 4 YEARS.
I know many suffering worse & waiting even longer.
What is going on with this country?
I read today of a family that has moved to Colorado to access cannabis for their baby!?
THEY KNOW IT WORKS! We know it works and the government knows it works that is why they are all about the $$$. How shameful is that?
We are Forced to take that route or we face possible conviction in this country that recognized Cananbis as a legal medicine - No wonder I'm twitchin! !!!
Enough - I need to go PAINT. My only true mind release! It takes thought, I become absorbed and LOVE EVERY SECOND of it. Twitch too. It is what it is.
I am inspired by my little Poppy.
My handsome son is driving me tomorrow! Up and early! We will have breakfast and head into the big city! LOL Before many rise for the day - I'll be back on my way, home to bed probably!
I believe in the power of Prayer and Good VIBES, I recently watched an interesting Documentary that stated it is often used by the USA government, Masons and prayer groups all over the world. STRENGTH in numbers especially of the MIND!
I know that already though.
Perhaps we should set a date - Wake up and demand decriminalization!
Ha ha ha
That would be awesome!
So any good vibes & positive prayers send them!
I am open to receive! Not just today every day!!!
Bring it on!
Tomorrow is a Guest Blog! Please Read!!
Poppy is so playful! She is out of that baby stage and now into playing, fetching, tug of war and chase! Today she was running with a stuffed toy 3 times her size and tripping every other step. She has also taken to sitting in the toy basket, to guarantee first dibs, I guess. It is a continual source of amusement for me and all who visit.
I had a visit - I can't get over Poppy all over my best bud Cathy below! She was on her lap and showering her is kisses!
All my girls love Cathy as you can see! Of course they do! But, sure enough as Cathy pats them - her nose gets itchy and she starts to sneeze - lol, but they cannot resist and clearly neither can she. Just looking at this photo I can't help but smile. I had to share.
Cathy will kill me she's not big on photos (neither am I) but not to share an image of love - Look at Poppy's tail! Wagging so fast it's a blur! Cathy could not even speak between kisses and giggles.
Daisy and Poppy are best friends. I am blessed to have Cathy as my best friend for several years now. She is 'THAT ONE' friend. All you need. She has seen me at my best, worst, prettiest and scariest, she actually told me today she 'Liked' my hair and I was thinking - Oh, you are such a good friend (heehee) ! She has shared tears, cried, laughed and hugged me a lifetime of hugs. She does not judge me - not even when I answer the door at 3 in my flannel P.J.'s. Or when I show her my next craft creation - she's ready to sign up for a how to! She also is the one I call in an emergency - crafting or cooking...
She inspires creativity and makes me want to be a better person.
All we need is one friend like that, I actually have a couple... but Cathy is my Bud.
I love her. If she ever tries to smuggle Poppy out of here, I shall show her no mercy.
Storm will soon be 21.
He started Cannabis at 14. Smokes it daily, all day.
I am no Dr. ... I’m ONLY his mother. I can tell you he is doing wonderful!
In these 7 years what have we witnessed?
Our son, a boy turning into a man, able to control his own pain all these years.
He is a good person, smart, caring, compassionate and excited for the future.
How it should be!!
How is was not for many years. Thank God for Cannabis.
The tides are turning and it is about time! I am reading so much good news about Cannabis, thankfully its value as a medicine! ESPECIALLY for children!! Prayers answered. Ask any of the parents you have seen on any the documentaries if they did not pray. They did. There is nothing worse than watching your child suffer.
Finally. headlines everywhere about medical cannabis. Parents all over will demand it for their child and more documentation will be available. It is AWESOME! I can’t help but feel inspired! Never mind just children, with 16,000 deaths from PILLS alone - more people will switch over.
Dr. Gupta 'came ou't and said what MANY have been saying for decades, so I understand the anger and it was long over due, I have too thought how could they not know? HOW would any neurologist NOT know what Cannabis research is showing with the brain!?
If they do NOT, do you want to go to them? WOW.
When you hear they have PROOF that cannabis is helping to rebuild BRAIN cells...
PROOF!! HELL yes, I want my Dr. to KNOW this. NOT wait for YEARS of research.
It should be myself and my Dr.s decision. EVER.
I have wondered while on this path, I feel I am already on the best medicine available for what ever I have going on. It appears to be the ONLY thing able to help me. Keeping me positive and creative and Happy to be ALIVE!
So -who cares! It is OUT now. Celebrate and move forward!
Yes, thinking about another birthday. ;-)))
Why? BECAUSE we have living Proof and it is ALL the PROOF we need.
Are you living Proof?
A baby. A miracle. Life.
Georgia... on my mind. I have been on my mind. Or rather my mind on my mind. ;) I woke up yesterday and told my husband:
I have made up my mind, I am NOT having another brain surgery. With it came ironically, a sense calm & relief.
NOT until they can say - this is what it is, and this is what we are going to do.
I have decided also... no more botox. Although botox stops visually my face from its contractions and does provide me with a rest, I am going to try my hardest to go without. It NEVER stopped the twitch, even what you no longer see I still feel inside. And it never stopped the pain when that happens as well. Am I doing it for you or me? ALSO once again as it wears off I have feeling in my face. It is so weird to feel like your face is not your face and that is what botox does to me. I can also smile a bit more normal again. ;&
I told my mom and a few others. It is not up for conversation any more. It is my head, It was not fun (on too many levels) yes, there is something obviously wrong but I have made this decision. I’m handing it over to God. I feel pretty good about my decision.
I also made another big decision... a couple of weeks ago Norm told me he was getting me my DREAM dog. A Chihuahua. A friend Norm works with just happened to mention it! Would I like a pup!?
I said NO.
I said no because I was worried about brain surgery and not being here for a new baby. SIMPLE. It hit me during the week. I said no because I am afraid of dying.
If I was not afraid I would have screamed from the roof tops!
What-ever this is. It has made me a better person, I have new respect for those with disabilities and a new determination to be better and try to do more ;-) so I woke up Saturday and told Norm of my decision so later in the day when he was e mailed baby photos - I took one look and said "O.k. Let’s go see..." I fell instantly in love. I think we all did. LOL, I was wishing our girls were with us too to meet their new baby sister!!!
You know of course I was thinking on the way there: I won’t want to leave it, what If I don’t like the family? LOL, The GOOD vibes I had from that home has put me instantly at peace! ;) My photo above I think I 'look high" lol - I was nearly in tears a few times, it was so emotional seeing that little baby a couple of days old. Oh my hands were cold so they were making noises for mom. Storm put it in his hand and it went right to sleep , same with the other two. It was so cute ;-)
I have a new baby coming home! I am so excited I feel great and I am NOT about to let anything stop me from enjoying each beautiful day God provides! AMEN! WOOT WOOT!! For those that do not support me in my decision, kindly keep it to yourself ♥ LOL.
Photos of the girls and the new baby: Driving up I asked what will we call it?
Storm: Muskie bait.
Norm: Gremlin. (If you know Norm - you knew that was coming)
Me: Precious (as 'WE' thought I looked like Golem in the photo!) LOL
Note to self... Do not let Storm take “baby’ fishing ;-)
Today is a new day.
I was gifted Friday a book, and read it already. I loved it. Although, I do feel the he, E. Alexander M.D. forgot about us 'not so medically inclined', I was dumb struck a few times. LOL
Hey, we can't all be brain surgeons.
I was hesitant to read it because of the brain issues (frightened, a better word) but glad I did. My faith is strong and I already believe in heaven. I believe there is more to us than this. We are all better than this <3. I BELIEVE in GOOD and God.
In a world full of temptation/lies/greed/pain it is hard to focus always on the good.
I too know that pain and fear bring out the worst in people and I am NO exception.
I am thankful for those around me that love me enough to remember that. ;)
Still, a few times "Proof Of Heaven!" hit too close to home.
Thinking of it now I tear up. <3 that poem.
He says he is meant to write that book and I feel I was meant to read it.
That is what it is all about. Helping each other.
I am glad I read it, not for proof of heaven but reminder that we are all ONE.
ONE LOVE ❤
It inspired the toon! At first I was just going to draw pills and cannabis, and then I was poked in the head to be reminded of the Bigger picture!!! :)
I am pulling back, looking in praying/meditation and DRAWING. Amen!
Enjoying my newly painted & clean (LOL - how long it will stay that way, time will tell.) kitchen - I have sunshine indoors all the time! I LOVE IT! That and my guys and girls...
Good Vibes always appreciated!
xox <>< !!!
Last night I went to bed in tears. Feeling completely frustrated and overwhelmed.
I had another visit with the neurologist and after the usually questions and concerns, I asked him if he actually had a diagnoses, after talking about Hemi facial spasm and Trigeminal neuralgia, the 5th and 7th nerve... No.
They cannot understand why I am having what I am and the pain associated with it.
I feel when I tell them how bad it is - it is not that they don’t believe - CLEARLY there is something going on, but I think they don’t ‘get the severity’ of it? I wonder is it because I am not in the office sobbing? Or that I don’t lie around all day feeling sorry for myself?
I can tell you, I DO feel like doing that.
I fought off tears several times in his office yesterday. IT is much harder to try to remain positive and busy and hopeful.
After the last surgery, I do feel better BUT whatever is going on is still going on and every day It MAKES me very aware that It can all be gone in an instant. I struggle with this reminder - as much as I AM REALLY grateful the new found appreciation and determination.. everyday thinking my brain is going to explode is exhausting.
These constant electrical zaps leave me feeling ‘fizzled”
My attack last week left me exhausted for 2 days.
I still have them constantly.. with a “doozie’ every now and then making an appearance.
Usually one a day. ;(
In his opinion, it is not getting better (mine too - it’s going on 4 YEARS slowly escalating)
He feels more surgery is the only opinion. The first not a complete success (it was in the fact that I’m still here! :) NOT knowing exactly what they are going in for... has me not to keen on the whole idea again - recovery itself seems daunting. Been there done that and in NO hurry to do it again.
I am frightened.
I need to take a break and think.
I wondered about sharing this... it’s time. My hand forced by someone on FB. This is my life at the moment and for what ever reason this is where I am meant to be. Happy or not.
I had a lesson last week on FB when someone was PISSED at me. Angry because I have not been responding to his messages or posts. First let me tell you having over 500o people on FB has it down falls, like messages every time you log on, I am constantly added to groups, events and my messages are never fewer than 50 every time I log on. Hard to keep up with for anyone, never mind someone who is also trying to work, be a mom, cartoonist, wife and suffers from some crazy brain thing.
I then was angry with him and asked him if he was aware I had brain surgery and have still been dealing with serious issues. No he was not.
No he does not bother to read my post, blogs etc only pissed that I did not share his website and his goings on. Yes, he apologized.
So here it is. I am not well. I have not been well for a while. I have been sicker than I have let on to most but a few are very aware of what has been going on. On top of all this I deal with other stuff, like the constant concern and battle over my sons medicine. Cannabis.
Stress added to the mixture - not good BUT unavoidable.
A growing concern with changes expected in the near future, no thanks to Health Canada.
I have hoped people would focus on my work and not my health and it appears to have worked out ;-) I can’t get mad for the lack of others understanding, awareness or even compassion at times. It says more about them than it will ever say about me. Simple.
I will end by saying that when I woke up today the first thing I did was thank God for opening my eyes and for the fact that I got out of bed.
I will NOT spend the day in bed crying, I will draw, spend the day with the girls (Storm is camping) I will celebrate every meal I am blessed with and every conversation I have. I will continue to hope I get better. I will have faith that everything does happen for a reason. All of this BTW has made me a better person.
I will also continue to use my cannabis as it numbs the pain and gives me a break if only for minutes at a time. I am grateful for it. It keeps me positive!
So why share? In hope that if ONLY one person stops and thinks before they make assumptions, judge or even aggravate - do you really know what each other is dealing with? How about we first ask ourselves that before we jump on some ones back as to why we are NOT the focus of THEIR attention.
Compassion and LOVE.
I am stronger today than I was last night.
I know why I am drawing and now I know why a few years ago we called my strip:
There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it's going to be a butterfly.
R. Buckminster Fuller
A picture is worth a thousand words...
If you see love in this photo it is because it exists.
My hubby saw this photo and instantly asked “WHO is that? Looks a little close to me... “
All I could think to say is “yes, it does, that is my friend Chris.” ;) This expo was the first time Chris and I actually met and that photo taken then. We have been friends on FB since 2o10. I never saw his photo before the EXPO and had no idea what he looked like. The moment he said ‘Hi' my heart jumped - CHRIS! I thought & he is handsome too! LOL
When I first met Chris it was online, FB. He was a medical patient and had suffered a very serious accident, I knew he suffered extensive damage to his face and brain not to mention everywhere else, I had seen photos of his x-rays but I did not know much more... then after a few posts, curiosity got the better of me and I asked. I am learning to be BLUNT - how else do you find stuff out.
Well, the rest is history. A history filled with questions, likes, comments, shares and more.
Chris, for some reason I decided to trust and share a few details about my own head pain long before many others even knew what I was dealing with, asking him what strain he suggested for head pain, a few things... I still do ;-) Just the other day I asked: Do you swear more?
I as you might know if you pay attention to this blog, I have been frightened to say the least, hard not to when you are dealing with something and Dr.s can’t seem to figure it out so. I ask, he answers. It has been a God send for me.
That makes me giggle, Chris and I have a different opinion on God - BUT even that we put aside to discuss other more important stuff! < How it should be.
Who else do you ask? If you don’t know from experience - YOU don’t get it!
He gets it. Explaining things I am experiencing.
I was thrilled when I heard he was coming to the EXPO! I really consider him a friend and I felt it! I know he cares for me and I him and we just became friends on FB and because of Cannabis! How cool is that?
That being said I did ask Chris If I could share a few details. I was going to ask him to write a blog but I thought - no, better to see his answers, up front & honest. Just as he shared with me and I am so grateful he did.
Below a few photos, I borrowed from his profile, and a few of our messages... ;-)
I asked Chris to share his accident and he did:
I have my card due to a very serious car vs. snow removal truck in 2003.
I was a passenger that had a 10 wheel dump truck full of snow turn in front of us, crossing our path. He turned illegally (double yellow line) into a parking lot to dump his snow (illegally on private property).
He claimed he did not see us, but that is only possible if he was not looking! There was nothing my friend could do, the truck turned and we hit the side at around 50mph (80k).
There were no airbags and the front of the car was destroyed, the dash actually came & hit me in the face, just under my chin and cracked everything up to my forehead. Lower jaw, upper jaw, cheekbone, eye orbits, nasal everything... it was not pretty.
Botched surgery caused me to need 3 more to adjust my upper jaw to what the idiots had done to the lower by mistake, all because of "god" complexes of certain doctors & the department in general.
Let's just say I do not recommend "teaching hospitals", part of a local university.
My other serious injury was to my brain, I have a frontal lobe TBI which is a real pain in the ass to say the least.
I'm not sure what you know of TBI (Traumatic brain injury), but it is a a serious problem with no solution, every victim will be affected slightly differently and it is invisible, so people just think we are rude, mean, all kinds of things that are associated with bad behavior. That leaves us open to discrimination and more problems. I am 'lucky' (Hurts to say that, because I really don't feel lucky!!) that I was highly functioning before so I compensate well in stress free situations, but it doesn't take too much to make me rattle me. Friends and family relations are strained, I am also really not the same person I was before, I like different music, different people, I dislike some friends and activities...
SO, I use cannabis for pain relief, which helps me a lot. I can do more things with less frustration and it makes me feel less pain to the point where I can think before I act or speak - a common trait with head injuries that can get us into a lot of trouble.
It also helps with anxiety, stress, makes me tolerant and compassionate.
I hope that wasn't too much info lol
Painful topic, once I start it's hard to stop the flow of words, I don't let them out often anymore.
To finish that up, 99.9% of people have no idea when they meet me if for just a few minutes, I hide it well, but after awhile it starts to show that I may not be in complete control of my thoughts, words and actions.
Cannabis gives me as much of those abilities as I can get, no other medication I tried even came close.
I asked about Strains:
It depends what you mean by brain pain
Headaches? mental fatigue?
I am not the best guy for this, my brain is in hyper vigilance mode due to a TBI, so I can intake massive amounts of any indica with no negative effects. Makes me sleepy, but so does having a TBI.
What they do to me is different from what they do to most ppl.
I avoid sativas cuz they make me even more hyper vigilant, jumpy, annoying ... lol
If I had to name one strain for most brain issues, anxiety, epilepsy... -->Sensi Star. It covers a wide range of issues, seizures are one of them, which I do not have, but the same soothing effect it gives an epileptic, it can provide to me. Hope that helps a bit
Secrets are safe with me
I hope the neuro can provide some good info, that sort of thing is complicated for sure. I have a brain injury so whenever I have issues with my eyes, speech, tingles, nerve pain, twitches... it is hard to know from where it actually starts.
I know an epileptic that swears he can take a few drops of Sensi Star tincture at the onset of a seizure (wife puts it under his tongue) and he almost instantly stops the seizures! Sensi Star may be the right strain for you, although they do have slightly different effects on each person.
Tinctures or eating it may also have an added benefit over inhaling for your purpose. I hope you find the strain you need
In between these e mail, we shared cute photos, jokes, toons, informative Cannabis info and Chris always supported my toons and work. He went even further to help me heal by sharing his advice on Hemp Products > Good for the BRAIN! - he sent me some AWESOME Hemp oil and that AMAZING honey (by mr. Cookie - Brain) that is a terrific appetite stimulant! Helped me pack on a few pounds, after surgery I lost another 14! I needed it. He still sends me tips and info for arthritis - something we also share.
That is all I will share with all of you... it has been one of the best lessons for me, you can make real, special friendships on FB.
Strangers are willing to help! ASK! Who knew!?
♥ You might be blessed to even meet them in real life! Chris thanked me over the years for inspiration.. I often wonder when someone comes into our lives is it for our advantage or theirs? BOTH. We are here to serve, help, assist, and share with each other.
Do you see love in that photo? I do ;-)
Not the kind of love that first comes to mind, but one of two people who care for each other and want to help each other.
All this week I keep thinking who knew, 4 years ago FB Friends you made would become real life friends. A drawing you did would be turned into glass by other artists?
WHO knew!? A caterpillar turned into butterfly.
Brought together by a PLANT!
I hope Chris and I continue to be even better friends as the years go on, he really has been a life/sanity saver for me the past few years and I am blessed to call him friend.
I grateful Chris and his bud (also a nice guy - got to meet him too at the EXPO) - are still here with us today
*** I discuss many blogs with my guys, and sometimes special friends before I publish.. I got a 'that seems pretty personal..' WHY? Because I express love for a friend, another human? Too often all we hear is negative. It surrounds us. We hate this and that... I have no more room or time for it. Not a day goes by in this house were we don't say I love you to each other... Storm and I every time he leaves or says goodbye - he throws in an I love you! What an awesome way to end a conversation. ;-) Until we see that person again.
I'm done, If you make me happy your going to know it! I don't care if the world knows it.
Maybe if Chris and I hung out more, I'd see more of the side he mentions - I have a hard time imagining (because he has only ever been nice to me) even then - because he shared with me, I KNOW to be patient & understanding, we are all far from perfect.
We should share with people - It avoids a lot of guessing. ♥