Well it's here and although I woke up feeling stressed today with the surgery being so close I found myself focusing more on recovery. I've already starting the healing process! I am drawing myself AFTER surgery already! ;) LOL
It has been 3 years. Steadily progressing the past year has been very frightening with the degree that it has escalated.
I have stopped going out. Socializing in general, going to church, visiting friends and I hope that that will all be over very soon, not to mention I will start to feel better. I can't help but think of many who have a disability like this that does not go away, or many that suffer from far worse. ;(
With this surgery there is hope! If God has decided to grace me with surgery that will tame this twitch I shall be creatively grateful! Pencils sharpened!
I'm going to rest my mind, focus on where I want to go and how I want to get there. Peacefully. Creatively.
So with only one more sleep - it is very clear what matters most to me:
It is NOT Cannabis, not $$$, not drawing, no- not even my dogs...
The love I feel for my husband and the best son in the entire universe (you can't go any further) who have supported me on this rough ride - and it has not always been cannabliss - I can tell you that! I look forward to being better and having good times with my guys!
Fish to catch, stuff to design, Norm to build, Drawings to do! Crafts to craft!
Dogs to play with! Adventures to be had! I have SEEDs to sow!
This is my official last post for a bit ;-) I will play it by ear (or brain) lol and blog when better. xox ♥☮☝
Remember to plant the seed of Cannabis education!!!
If I said thinking about surgery I was not frightened, I'd be a LIAR .
Every now and then it hits me, as the day goes on and I have several twitch attacks and a head ACHE since the moment my brain registers it is awake.. the fear disappears and I know this has to be done. I am getting my Zen Den ready!
Determined to surround myself with all things I love and keep it simple I have a few key essentials:
- my ipod with meditation music - lots of Om mani padme hum
going to be happening ;D.
-T.V. & DVD player and of course my box sets of Warner Brother cartoons! Watched a few of my favs. last night! Has made me feel good since I was a kid!
-I made a 'positive vibes board' & complimentary pins (can't tell you too much about it, as it is a very cool and up coming craft)!! I hope to stick it with ideas, photos and more to keep me inspired & focused.
-A book that I have read before (I'm not going to strain my brain in any way) Our Lady of the Lost and Found
< click to read more. It is inspiring, fun, interesting and I find the entire concept pretty cool. I love a good book and have found that reading this one - I am easily drifting off on inspired ideas.. I also have The Pot Book
and am expecting Hempology 101 in the mail by Ted Smith
any day ! So I will have some material for CC Cartoons - Not that I ever seem to be a at a lack for material;-) Also the Bible ♥
-OF course - I have my supply of pencils, paper, note pads and ink! Ready to rock!
Buddha & beside him my hemp ball, my mini ROOR, my Plenty by my bedside and a dish of healing herb - without it I do not know how I'd have got through these past few years!
So I'm ready! Storm has been -as always fantastic, from helping mop to more <3 The only think I'm 'upset' about is I have to keep the girls locked out of my bedroom for 2 weeks. Should be interesting. I am so ready for this healing process to begin. * after a difficult day yesterday - this toon came to me last night and made me giggle so I drew it to give to my Dr. before surgery - Note* Right side please! LOL I hope he has a sense of humor.
Last Post tomorrow for 2 weeks peeps. I am shutting down. <3
Weight loss is one of the biggest magic bullets around. Take this pill and you'll be thin. IF only. WAKE up Sheeple!!!
If that was the case would there be any obese people? No
I am sick and tired of advertising that in very small print says results NOT typical - well you know what show us what is TYPICAL so we can make an honest, educated decision ourselves. These pills that are hurting and even killing people - because of advertising that is ''false" should be banned. Stopped. Hold accountable any business that uses such false advertising. Next time you see an add that says results are not typical - MOVE on. That is a way for them to protect their ass- when you don't get the results you saw in the magazine! Stop buying the magazine, WRITE to magazines and ask them to tell you the truth if you are going to be spending your money on them.. The best thing you can do is educate yourself & your kids! Teach them about photoshop (some neat examples below), false advertising and to research ANY medication- pills- herbal or synthetic that they plan on putting into their one beautiful body! xox
From the photos below - even the beautiful they touch up!
No such thing as perfection so why lie? Teach love comes in all shapes, colors and moles!
More and more older people are turning back to cannabis! Why? Because although old they are far from stupid! As we age we go to the Dr. and are given pills for our aches and pains.. they come with age for most of us. That is life, happy to still be a part of it.
Unfortunately, as we continue to age we are prescribed more pills for each ache and pain, sleep problems, stress, tired-- the list is endless. Chemical cocktails, add to this already deadly mix- the fact that we forget! Accidental overdoes is a common problem with the aged.
That does not just happen to older people- it can happen to us all when not feeling well or distracted. It is not a problem with cannabis. There is a 'home' in Isreal where Cannabis is handed out to patients who need it and benefit from it and because of -LIVING proof- it is becoming even more common. The next generation under the boomers - I was born in 64
are watching our parents being drugged for this and that. No wonder so many are turning back to something they KNOW makes them feel better- Still gives them a desire to live! Watch this short vid. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D0VG3prgCDc
*if you click the CC box on the bottom you will get subtitles!
It is just one of many examples! It is NEVER too late to try and feel better and that is our right! Share this with your parents!
*Moderation. As much as I talk about anti booze- I do know several people who have always been able to have 'a drink'. A drink after a long day - to take the edge off.. relax, unwind with a glass of wine. A (ONE) drink. EVERYTHING in moderation! My husbands dad was well into his 80's and said a shot of rum- kept his blood flowing. One shot - that was it. Usually in his evening coffee. He died because of complications due to a car accident, it was not the rum - and he was by far one of the 'SHARPEST' pencils in the box. KEEP IN MIND, studies show that alcohol is more damaging to the body and brain than marijuana.
*the bong- Storm and I went to a great little new store - http://www.thekockydog.ca/
nice to not have to drive to TO. for stuff.. any how I spotted this bong (a giant penis) and had to giggle! I said "who buys this..." and Storm said -"NOT YOU!" LOL so I thought I'd have fun with this toon! Of course I thought of the sippy cup* my friend Sue has a photo on FB with her and this cup and it makes me crack up every time I see it. Life is about having fun and feeling good. Not work, work till you die. So have a laugh and educate your elders about Cannabis! <>< XOX
I saw this cute stick figure drawing on line and was inspired to re-draw. I like the message.
My mind is full these days. Looking forward to meeting with the surgeon (although -no lies- a little nervous), and of course there is always other stuff. LIFE. Up and DOWN
Last week Storms hearing aid broke - but when he told me, for once it did not stress us out as he had purchased an extra years warranty at his last visit for almost $400.oo! So we thought- I was called this week (so much for client patient privledge also- Storm being the client who paid for everything himself - yet I was called) was informed - "oh, that was just for one hearing aid" ... clearly WE miss understood.
And when I called to question I was verbally yelled at, was told (meaning Storm) "perhaps he should learn to read". Adding insult to injury.
Storm finally called him as he still had not bothered to call Storm - only to be just as offended by this "professional". He also denied (lied) to Storm and said he did not yell at me or say anything. I was literally shaking after our phone conversation - which was in fact BULLYING on an adult level.
I had to let it go I don't need the stress. BUT I can't not let it go . This man is in my community and most of his clients are older disabled clients. IS this how he will treat them - when something is not explained clearly? Will he yell at them when they ask for an explanation? I have many elderly friends in this community - many who I met through church and care for very much- the thought of one of them experiencing this - is concerning. If one other person is spared this treatment - GOOD! YES, I realize it is his word against mine. We have no reason to lie. It is the last thing we need to worry about.
I was so upset I was going to post it on FB - but I have too many people - disabled that would be disgusted.
That's it - we wrote it off.
At least the seed has been planted - people made aware- they might not believe me - I don't care, HE will NOW have to PROVE otherwise - and EXPLAIN properly to patients, provide CLEAR, professional paperwork and God wiling - be a better person.
Unfortunately Storm is out almost $400. and still has no hearing in the one ear. ;-(
Today I have spent time with the dogs, Daisy especially with a ball being forced into my ribs as I TRY to draw- is teaching me to be mindful. The toon is with Tequila - as she is getting old she just likes to sit beside me and look. I look at her and I see Peace. I pat her and I feel peace. I wish everyone could have a dog.
I also better understand the phrase the more I know people (like this hearing aid guy) the more I like my dogs.
Now back to work on Snoop lion.
Someone questioned my recent decision to "clean out my friendship closet..." was it a wise move? Looking back over a year later. YES. Do I miss them ? YES! And I still think of them often. I do not think of why we stopped being friends rather I try to think only of the good memories that we had before. Time changes everything. Experience can change everything. As in relationships like marriage - friends can grow and go in different directions. What I no longer want is a friend has become very clear over time. I will no longer sit around and gossip about people - judge them for what they have or don't have - I also don't want to sit around and DRINK anymore to be social. Those days for me are done. Sometimes your friends are at a different place. So you either move on or stay and not be true to yourself or your friend. I decided to move on.
All you can do is try to do what is best for yourself. Do what it takes to make yourself a better person sometimes when you grow you've got to go it alone. I don't 'hate' anyone that I was once friends with - EVERYONE teaches us something and to be friends in the first place we must have had a lot of fun at one point! BUT when its time to move on - it's time to move on - as with a job, a career, relationship, friendship.
So yes, I still miss and think of them often, No- I do not regret moving on.
It's all a part of life.
I do only try to surround myself now with those that lift me higher - in the heart and mind. That is where it matters most. xox <><
From reality T.V and the news, FB, reading the paper- and witnessing life... wow Teens today! NEVER MIND teens today! PARENTS TODAY! If your teen thinks it is COOL to have a baby - I will say it > where the heck are your parenting skills!?
IT is not COOL for the amount of TEENS to be having babies that are having babies! Not married, (not that really matters- I have many friends 20 years later that no longer married) do not have steady jobs are in many cases do NOT even finish their high school education. More and more babies are being born to young moms- who really are not ready, prepared for the 20+ year job they just took on! AND no dads! A generation is being brought up without dads. Or more of what I am hearing a generation being raised by already also stressed grandparents because young moms soon find they have a hard time handling.
You read and see it every day. IT IS harder for teens today!
$$$ schools- $$$, no jobs, parents working harder, parents working more hours less family time.
The most important second thing that appears to be COOL - guns and gangs. NOT COOL
It speaks for itself especially in this city Toronto that I grew up in. This summer full of guns, death, gangs and violence. IT's NOT cool. Sadly most realize how UN cool it is once they are in jail or have lost a life.
ATTITUDE. Kids are getting away with so much attitude. They think it's o.k. /cool to walk up to a stranger and tell them to go fuck themselves. They walk around angry and miserable. Sadly they grow, angrier, nastier and alone. The crap they get away with IN school is terrible - I feel for teachers and other students that grasp the importance of an education but are forced to deal with others attitude and Bullshit. Not COOL.
All this is on the rise... WHY? Where are today's parents? WHEN your children are young they need direction and LOVE and they need to think - ahead of the moment to see that what they think as today's cool could have them turned into tomorrows Fool. Sad all around. They don't need all that STUFF that parents work so hard for, most do not appreciate it anyway.
TEENS are big kids. STILL needing lots of LOVE - even more! Patience and teaching - after all they will soon be tomorrows adults and that effects us all.
DON'T LIE to them about Cannabis. If you drink ALCOHOL - make sure they understand how many lives are ruined by alcohol daily on every level - EDUCATE them so they can be the intelligent beings they are - with a chance at a positive future.WE all need to Teach our children about moderation, choice and responsibility.
xox LOT's of LOVE they can never have too much LOVE.
I've watched documentaries on the Amazon and how we go in and destroy. Simple.
Many medicines are derived from Plants found all over the world. Cannabis just one of many helpful herbs. All plants are placed on the planet for all people. SIMPLE.
How many are we? Educate someone today!
Side note: My baby bro. (by one year) is spending a few days here with me. He himself admitted he had no idea the scale of Cannabis education until a few short days spent here. LOL - TRUST me thats not because we walk around all day with a doobie hanging out our mouth - it is because we take Cannabis very seriously in this home
. My brother quickly realizing we are not into stoner jokes or mentality when it comes to our medicine.
But again it just showed/reminded me - unless you live it you don't know - unless you seek the truth your still caught up in the reefer madness.
If you had a child that relied on it for their quality of life you would take it very seriously also. I can't help but think of the Hyde family who have decided - no more tests, no more pain for Cashy - they are going to give him RSO and treat him at home. My heart is with them, prayers and HOPE.
I have to admit I have 'lost it' a few times with people. Someone contacted me saying their license had expired and they needed to get re-signed cause they were growing and have small kids could I give them our Dr.s name so they can get signed. I asked him if he had recently been diagnosed with a TERMINAL illness.
I was pissed. Still am kinda - not at the person - I actually like him as a person -Im more angry at the mindset. He has kids - all healthy I am guessing. - SERIOUSLY!? Stop and think.
My son had his license at 14. He has a progressive to terminal incredibly painful bone disease- always has and (although I can hope and pray) he probably always will.
No I will NOT give you our Dr.s information. I know he would be even less impressed.
IF YOU WANT to use Cannabis recreationally - then get off your ass and do something about it! VOTE! EDUCATE! Speak up!
If you want Cannabis as your medicine ask YOUR own Dr. , I have mentioned so many times in this blog how to do it .. If they say NO find a new Dr.
One that cares for your true well being - or maybe if your Dr. says no - perhaps he does not agree that you need it. Either way - it is your responsibility. No one should be asking for anyones Dr.
For now ask yourself -how many are we ?
Truth be told. Went to bed in tears last night.
Wonder why I am doing what I am doing, when I feel we are being punished
for what we believe in.
Worse - being punished because of others ignorance.
Because of a Plant... saving our sons life.
Still feeling very.. sad. Disappointed. Then I look at my Storm.
I know why I AM doing what I AM doing. For 100% PURE LOVE
And when you have LOVE you have all you need.
Everything happens for a reason.
Really - where does it get us? The worst possible case scenario IMO - is DEATH. So if it's not going to kill you - It may hurt but YOU learn from each hurt. You learn not to do it again & you become stronger and stand up for what you believe in. My feeling can be hurt over and over - It won't kill me. As a mater of fact - I may shed some tears, ask Why?
To LEARN. We are all her to learn and MAKE this world a better place. NOT judge - Too many are so quick to judge now a days - yet we all walk a fine line - WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES. To pass judgement on someone that is using a medicine that is physically helping them so they do NOT suffer - be it a PLANT or a PILL is a crime. I WILL NEVER wish what Storm has on a living sole ever - but I have to say - it has crossed my mind several times - IF it was YOUR kid you would be singing a different tune/toon! I find it hard to believe any parent under the same circumstances to want to give their child chemicals over a natural plant that is helping them - once you do the research. So - I do worry for a bit but my faith being strong - whatever problem sooner or later I say Is in God's hands. He has not failed me yet. Espeically not when I am defending the love of my family. I have been blessed with my guys, husband and son. I like to think I am kind, helpful and caring but like anyone Don't F*&^% with my family. Don't harm my guys and don't take food out of our mouths and we'll be fine.
As for the world ending - I'm not going to worry. LOL - I believe the Myans were just making the date that Cannabis is finally legal! AMEN!
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
*I know many do not believe in the bible - I admit I do not take it literally, you can't - if so everyone that has ever eaten a lobster is going to hell. - I feel it is a wonderful book to read and learn and if you believe it or NOT - It's true - why worry - tomorrow will be here and we take it one step at a time. The bible - brings me comfort
It soothes my soul and leads me to greener pastures! Punn intended.