Last Monday I guess I finally had the straw that broke this camels back.
I went for a test, one I had hoped and prayed would help Dr.s see what is finally going on in my head. It was not a pleasant experience to say the least. I left feeling defeated, degraded and ashamed at myself. I had questioned the test as I understood I was to have something different, I was told over and over I was wrong. I can tell you that for the first time in my life I truly felt like a piece of meat. Once home I called and confirmed I was to have a different test. Then I got a bit of 'Blah blah blah...' - and it did not make anything any better only worse. I then think I had a bit of a breakdown. I cried off and on for two days. I needed to get away.
I am blessed with a long time friend who when I asked if I could use his cottage, he offered me his home instead as no one is in it at the moment. I house sat.
I was nice to sit here too as he is a special friend - he has kept me sane these past years with paper alone!! He has supported my cartooning since day one. I could not have done it without him, well... perhaps, we find ways. His friendship for over 20+ years has always been a treasure. He knows it. LOL
To say I was 'roughing it' would be a lie. Central vac, hot tub... amazing privacy & deer!
A Sasquach!? Fire, snuggling with Poppy on my lap CD's ( o.k. - he does need to upgrade his variety!!! lol
Darkness and quite like I have not witnessed in a long time, talk about sooth the soul!
I think I made a new friend to boot! We shall see. Everything happens for a reason ;) .
I have taken photos, walked, explored a little but mostly, I have slept and drawn for 6 days and feel rested. With only Poppy for a companion we have had some fun! Today she lost a tooth. I have to admit both, too afraid to venture out after dark - she has been an awesome little pup in every way I can think of - oh well except for her obsession with the door stopper - Boooiiinnnggg, Booooiiinnnggg, Boiiinnngg!! LOL So happy she just discovered it and not when we arrived.
As much as I needed to get away, I need to return to my family -who is missing me and visa versa.
Blog and new TOONS!!! I am amazed at what I drew while away, I listened to what I thought I should draw about and I was never let down. It was not always about cannabis. It is always about humans. HIV, Future of Health Canada, A political statement that I know many of us all feel right now, a special toon with my son, and some Poppy - because - I still have a every day life...
I AM ready to continue.
Next Blog Sunday!
I sit and giggle that I called my strip On MY mind.. really. Georgia, Georgia, no peace I find
Just an old sweet song keeps Georgia on my mind.I LOVE Willie!
I also have stuff ON MY MIND.
It sure feels like it anyhow. I realized I started my blog with the cartoon Blah Blah Blog. Before I even knew what was going on was going on. June 21,2010... this is a long time. Steadily progressing then surgery, again progressing.
YES, I am thinking PLEASE LET them figure this out! I am exhausted, everyday is a challenge to continue through normal chores and experiences with a constant prodding in my head every few minutes... at the same time terrified that they will find something!
How can they not? I have asked my self this before.
Apparently this test will help see if there are any blocks or aneurysms.
Which makes me think - why the heck have I not had this already!? 4 YEARS.
I know many suffering worse & waiting even longer.
What is going on with this country?
I read today of a family that has moved to Colorado to access cannabis for their baby
THEY KNOW IT WORKS! We know it works and the government knows it works that is why they are all about the $$$. How shameful is that?
We are Forced to take that route or we face possible conviction in this country that recognized Cananbis as a legal medicine - No wonder I'm twitchin! !!!
Enough - I need to go PAINT. My only true mind release! It takes thought, I become absorbed and LOVE EVERY SECOND of it. Twitch too. It is what it is.
I am inspired by my little Poppy.
My handsome son is driving me tomorrow! Up and early! We will have breakfast and head into the big city! LOL Before many rise for the day - I'll be back on my way, home to bed probably!
I believe in the power of Prayer and Good VIBES, I recently watched an interesting Documentary that stated it is often used by the USA government, Masons and prayer groups all over the world. STRENGTH in numbers especially of the MIND!
I know that already though.
Perhaps we should set a date - Wake up and demand decriminalization!
Ha ha ha
That would be awesome!
So any good vibes & positive prayers send them!
I am open to receive! Not just today every day!!!
Bring it on!
Tomorrow is a Guest Blog! Please Read!!
My son often says to me... " Let it go... " and yes it is a trait I need to learn to be better at.
I let stuff 'get to me'. Always have. I wear my heart on my sleeve. So what. I will not apologize for it. It amazes me how I am realizing what triggers such emotions that GET me going. So - everything happens for a reason.
If you ask my opinion I tell you and honestly.
I made a promise about 18 years ago that I am not breaking for anyone. Including myself.
The truth shall set you free! ;) I tell you WHAT! It never lets you down when you want to have that perfect 'reply' to someone, especially when the topic is something YOU are passionate about. I have a few of those topics.
I believe in standing up for what I believe in. Bridges are bound to get burned.
Not everyone is going to love me. That is not why we are here. We are hear to learn from each other. Make each other THINK! Good and bad lessons. Wise & not so wise choices ;-) The greatest lesson in all of it I believe (and the hardest) is THEN to move on!
MOVE ON! Let it out of your heart. Distraction robs us of today, now and doing what we LOVE with those we love. WHY the heck is anyone surrounding themselves with people that bring them misery and frustration and pain?
MOVE on. I am a child of God and I deserve to be happy - but that means we must choose to LET go and then move on.
BTW - This Laughing Buddha was so much about letting it was insane! I started it 3 days ago but twice - HAD to draw something else. I can't draw a LB and have my head some place else. Then I made this weird mistake and a strange smile kept showing! But the drawing did not look right, I found this awesome old paint my friend Cathy bought me 'flesh color' and live - he almost glows ;-)
It started with Poppy, Daisy and Scruffy and only Daisy remains. It took on a life of it's own! It made me LET GO! I love him! I hope you do too.
What do you have to let go?
What Am I?
I am sick and tired of Health Canada and Steven Harper saying everyone they
provided licenses to are CRIMINALS.
WHY now? After providing thousands with permission to grow for years?
Because they REALIZE that YES indeed Cannabis will become a BILLION dollar industry and they can make $$$. LOT's of MONEY.
Who cares about the Health in Health Canada?
It is ONLY about money... for them.
For US it is about a life saving medicine that has changed our lives for the better!
ONE that WE were prescribed by a Dr. (not paid for) & granted permission from Health Canada to have a Designated Grower and provide Storm with his own medicine.
YES WE have invested MUCH. Blood , sweat & tears and $$$.
You would too if your only son was suffering from a terminal to progressive, no treatment no cure, chronic pain disease! We are after 7 years finally just now making up for all of it and providing for Storm and myself perfectly.
NOW Health Canada expects us to stop providing for ourselves - as we have for the past 7 years. We are expected to stop and start paying for cannabis -* the amount Storm would need, according to Health Canada's prediction of prices would be:
10 grams / day @ $5 = $18,200.00/year
@$3 = $10,920.00/year
@ $7 / gram = $25,480.00 < what H.C. suggests.
ARE YOU F*CKING KIDDING ME? - people wonder why I swear. ;)
We can not afford it. Could you?
For something our DG is now producing for pennies?
I think NOT.
Simply because they ASSume, we are all criminals?
I know what I am and it is NOT a criminal.
All cops are Pigs.
All fat people are lazy.
All blonds are dumb.
All priests are pedophiles.
All muslims are terrorists.
All women are easy.
All men are assholes.
All politicians are criminals .. (hmmmmmmmm - verdict not yet in on this one.)
^ALL WRONG! ^ All negative, uneducated stigmas/stereo types.
This is no exception. It is wrong.
Criminals? Gardeners!? That is what they are!
GROWING A PLANT. A human right.
How we have survived - forever.
Who are you?!
I hope I have inspired more to do the same or at least THINK about it. We are powerful. We are Not criminals and we deserve the right to provide for ourselves as we have been for years. < Thanks to Health Canada.
Many of us hate having our photo taken. Imagine now you have a "twitch' that contorts your face most of the time. Photo's? Yippie.
I was asked for a photo for an upcoming interview & need one for another project and a book photo so I thought best to get it done right.
Who better than someone I have known for years. I asked Kyle Clements, a very talented artist
and photographer and the next day he showed up!! Kyle is also down to earth and what I consider "quirky" in a great way, so I was at ease.
I think that is part of the battle right there! As an added bonus Kyle brought his mom!
LOL *just in this case- as she is my best friend too, I am sure he does not show up for photo shoots with mom in tow, she did a great job of holding the light and making me laugh.
When I got the photos I became teary, because I like them.
I usually avoid mirrors at all costs. I feel my face contorting a million times a day -
I don't need to see it. Know what I mean?
This is me. This is how I am and have been for the past 4 years now.. I wish I did not have the pain that goes with it. It is the pain and concern is what allows me to get past the rest though, see how trivial it all is.
No touched up photos here, no fancy dress, no elaborate props... they all just add to the illusion.
I have no time for pretend.
Love me or leave me I care not - I will survive and continue on!
It does not matter what we look like only that we still remain.
What a difficult lesson this has been BUT I am grateful for every bit of it!
It broke a barrier for me- I look differently at people with disabilities and those with vanity issues. The more beautiful as of late, are those that YOU really see - not those that disguise it all with a beautiful shell and can be very ugly on the inside.
My son puts it better than anyone ever will.
"Mom when I look at any photo of you I see Love."
No one else's opinion matters.
Thank you Kyle.. I get by with a little help from my friends ;-) xox
A friend had some plants taken from his back yard. I am hoping it was just some thoughtless kid and NOT someone he knows. He is upset and stressed. I GET IT.
How do you think I feel when I worry about he proposed future of medical Cannabis in Canada today? Not being able to afford medicine that Storm needs. Medicine I need.
I get it.
Someone stole the plants - to get high. Not thinking much about anything other than themselves and getting a BUZZ. The real buzz is the BUZZ kill a patient now is dealign with over a plant. Suffering - a few months supply of medicine gone. Thief.
If this PLANT were decriminalized and be as IT SHOULD - a seed to plant for all human kind - no one would need to go around and STEAL it!
What other weeds do people do around and steal!? Not my dandelions.
Prohibition is turning people into criminals over plants.
Not the Plant and not the person - that is HUMAN NATURE, to want to feel good.
Please THINK before you consider lifting a plant you might see that does NOT belong to you. It could mean a lot more than getting high to someone - I could mean them being able to keep their job, or function with their family.. it could mean life or death.
A Thief is a Thief. If they steal from one with no guilt, they will steal from another.
It is sad. I don’t think anyone ever trusts a thief again. Including themselves.
I also feel there is an entire beautiful energy surrounding this plant - bad karma if you ask me. Not a high I would enjoy. Not one someone who truly appreciates cannabis would do.
VOTE & GROW it.
Last night I went to bed in tears. Feeling completely frustrated and overwhelmed.
I had another visit with the neurologist and after the usually questions and concerns, I asked him if he actually had a diagnoses, after talking about Hemi facial spasm and Trigeminal neuralgia, the 5th and 7th nerve... No.
They cannot understand why I am having what I am and the pain associated with it.
I feel when I tell them how bad it is - it is not that they don’t believe - CLEARLY there is something going on, but I think they don’t ‘get the severity’ of it? I wonder is it because I am not in the office sobbing? Or that I don’t lie around all day feeling sorry for myself?
I can tell you, I DO feel like doing that.
I fought off tears several times in his office yesterday. IT is much harder to try to remain positive and busy and hopeful.
After the last surgery, I do feel better BUT whatever is going on is still going on and every day It MAKES me very aware that It can all be gone in an instant. I struggle with this reminder - as much as I AM REALLY grateful the new found appreciation and determination.. everyday thinking my brain is going to explode is exhausting.
These constant electrical zaps leave me feeling ‘fizzled”
My attack last week left me exhausted for 2 days.
I still have them constantly.. with a “doozie’ every now and then making an appearance.
Usually one a day. ;(
In his opinion, it is not getting better (mine too - it’s going on 4 YEARS slowly escalating)
He feels more surgery is the only opinion. The first not a complete success (it was in the fact that I’m still here! :) NOT knowing exactly what they are going in for... has me not to keen on the whole idea again - recovery itself seems daunting. Been there done that and in NO hurry to do it again.
I am frightened.
I need to take a break and think.
I wondered about sharing this... it’s time. My hand forced by someone on FB. This is my life at the moment and for what ever reason this is where I am meant to be. Happy or not.
I had a lesson last week on FB when someone was PISSED at me. Angry because I have not been responding to his messages or posts. First let me tell you having over 500o people on FB has it down falls, like messages every time you log on, I am constantly added to groups, events and my messages are never fewer than 50 every time I log on. Hard to keep up with for anyone, never mind someone who is also trying to work, be a mom, cartoonist, wife and suffers from some crazy brain thing.
I then was angry with him and asked him if he was aware I had brain surgery and have still been dealing with serious issues. No he was not.
No he does not bother to read my post, blogs etc only pissed that I did not share his website and his goings on. Yes, he apologized.
So here it is. I am not well. I have not been well for a while. I have been sicker than I have let on to most but a few are very aware of what has been going on. On top of all this I deal with other stuff, like the constant concern and battle over my sons medicine. Cannabis.
Stress added to the mixture - not good BUT unavoidable.
A growing concern with changes expected in the near future, no thanks to Health Canada.
I have hoped people would focus on my work and not my health and it appears to have worked out ;-) I can’t get mad for the lack of others understanding, awareness or even compassion at times. It says more about them than it will ever say about me. Simple.
I will end by saying that when I woke up today the first thing I did was thank God for opening my eyes and for the fact that I got out of bed.
I will NOT spend the day in bed crying, I will draw, spend the day with the girls (Storm is camping) I will celebrate every meal I am blessed with and every conversation I have. I will continue to hope I get better. I will have faith that everything does happen for a reason. All of this BTW has made me a better person.
I will also continue to use my cannabis as it numbs the pain and gives me a break if only for minutes at a time. I am grateful for it. It keeps me positive!
So why share? In hope that if ONLY one person stops and thinks before they make assumptions, judge or even aggravate - do you really know what each other is dealing with? How about we first ask ourselves that before we jump on some ones back as to why we are NOT the focus of THEIR attention.
Compassion and LOVE.
I am stronger today than I was last night.
I know why I am drawing and now I know why a few years ago we called my strip:
There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it's going to be a butterfly.R. Buckminster Fuller
A picture is worth a thousand words...
If you see love in this photo it is because it exists.
My hubby saw this photo and instantly asked “WHO is that? Looks a little close to me... “
All I could think to say is “yes, it does, that is my friend Chris.” ;) This expo was the first time Chris and I actually met and that photo taken then. We have been friends on FB since 2o10. I never saw his photo before the EXPO and had no idea what he looked like. The moment he said ‘Hi' my heart jumped - CHRIS! I thought & he is handsome too! LOL
When I first met Chris it was online, FB. He was a medical patient and had suffered a very serious accident, I knew he suffered extensive damage to his face and brain not to mention everywhere else, I had seen photos of his x-rays but I did not know much more... then after a few posts, curiosity got the better of me and I asked. I am learning to be BLUNT - how else do you find stuff out.
Well, the rest is history. A history filled with questions, likes, comments, shares and more.
Chris, for some reason I decided to trust and share a few details about my own head pain long before many others even knew what I was dealing with, asking him what strain he suggested for head pain, a few things... I still do ;-) Just the other day I asked: Do you swear more?
I as you might know if you pay attention to this blog, I have been frightened to say the least, hard not to when you are dealing with something and Dr.s can’t seem to figure it out so. I ask, he answers. It has been a God send for me.
That makes me giggle, Chris and I have a different opinion on God - BUT even that we put aside to discuss other more important stuff! < How it should be.
Who else do you ask? If you don’t know from experience - YOU don’t get it!
He gets it. Explaining things I am experiencing.
I was thrilled when I heard he was coming to the EXPO! I really consider him a friend and I felt it! I know he cares for me and I him and we just became friends on FB and because of Cannabis! How cool is that?
That being said I did ask Chris If I could share a few details. I was going to ask him to write a blog but I thought - no, better to see his answers, up front & honest. Just as he shared with me and I am so grateful he did.
Below a few photos, I borrowed from his profile, and a few of our messages... ;-) I asked Chris to share his accident and he did: I have my card due to a very serious car vs. snow removal truck in 2003.I was a passenger that had a 10 wheel dump truck full of snow turn in front of us, crossing our path. He turned illegally (double yellow line) into a parking lot to dump his snow (illegally on private property).
He claimed he did not see us, but that is only possible if he was not looking! There was nothing my friend could do, the truck turned and we hit the side at around 50mph (80k).
There were no airbags and the front of the car was destroyed, the dash actually came & hit me in the face, just under my chin and cracked everything up to my forehead. Lower jaw, upper jaw, cheekbone, eye orbits, nasal everything... it was not pretty.
Botched surgery caused me to need 3 more to adjust my upper jaw to what the idiots had done to the lower by mistake, all because of "god" complexes of certain doctors & the department in general.
Let's just say I do not recommend "teaching hospitals", part of a local university.
My other serious injury was to my brain, I have a frontal lobe TBI which is a real pain in the ass to say the least.
I'm not sure what you know of TBI (Traumatic brain injury), but it is a a serious problem with no solution, every victim will be affected slightly differently and it is invisible, so people just think we are rude, mean, all kinds of things that are associated with bad behavior. That leaves us open to discrimination and more problems. I am 'lucky' (Hurts to say that, because I really don't feel lucky!!) that I was highly functioning before so I compensate well in stress free situations, but it doesn't take too much to make me rattle me. Friends and family relations are strained, I am also really not the same person I was before, I like different music, different people, I dislike some friends and activities...
SO, I use cannabis for pain relief, which helps me a lot. I can do more things with less frustration and it makes me feel less pain to the point where I can think before I act or speak - a common trait with head injuries that can get us into a lot of trouble.
It also helps with anxiety, stress, makes me tolerant and compassionate.
I hope that wasn't too much info lol
Painful topic, once I start it's hard to stop the flow of words, I don't let them out often anymore.
To finish that up, 99.9% of people have no idea when they meet me if for just a few minutes, I hide it well, but after awhile it starts to show that I may not be in complete control of my thoughts, words and actions.
Cannabis gives me as much of those abilities as I can get, no other medication I tried even came close.
I asked about Strains: It depends what you mean by brain pain
Headaches? mental fatigue?
I am not the best guy for this, my brain is in hyper vigilance mode due to a TBI, so I can intake massive amounts of any indica with no negative effects. Makes me sleepy, but so does having a TBI.
What they do to me is different from what they do to most ppl.
I avoid sativas cuz they make me even more hyper vigilant, jumpy, annoying ... lol
If I had to name one strain for most brain issues, anxiety, epilepsy... -->Sensi Star. It covers a wide range of issues, seizures are one of them, which I do not have, but the same soothing effect it gives an epileptic, it can provide to me. Hope that helps a bit
... Hi Georgia,
Secrets are safe with me
I hope the neuro can provide some good info, that sort of thing is complicated for sure. I have a brain injury so whenever I have issues with my eyes, speech, tingles, nerve pain, twitches... it is hard to know from where it actually starts.
I know an epileptic that swears he can take a few drops of Sensi Star tincture at the onset of a seizure (wife puts it under his tongue) and he almost instantly stops the seizures! Sensi Star may be the right strain for you, although they do have slightly different effects on each person.
Tinctures or eating it may also have an added benefit over inhaling for your purpose. I hope you find the strain you need
In between these e mail, we shared cute photos, jokes, toons, informative Cannabis info and Chris always supported my toons and work. He went even further to help me heal by sharing his advice on Hemp Products > Good for the BRAIN! - he sent me some AWESOME Hemp oil and that AMAZING honey (by mr. Cookie - Brain) that is a terrific appetite stimulant! Helped me pack on a few pounds, after surgery I lost another 14! I needed it. He still sends me tips and info for arthritis - something we also share.
That is all I will share with all of you... it has been one of the best lessons for me, you can make real, special friendships on FB. Strangers are willing to help! ASK!
♥ You might be blessed to even meet them in real life! Chris thanked me over the years for inspiration.. I often wonder when someone comes into our lives is it for our advantage or theirs? BOTH. We are here to serve, help, assist, and share with each other.
Do you see love in that photo? I do ;-)
Not the kind of love that first comes to mind, but one of two people who care for each other and want to help each other.
All this week I keep thinking who knew, 4 years ago FB Friends you made would become real life friends. A drawing you did would be turned into glass by other artists?
WHO knew!? A caterpillar turned into butterfly.
Brought together by a PLANT!
I hope Chris and I continue to be even better friends as the years go on, he really has been a life/sanity saver for me the past few years and I am blessed to call him friend.
I grateful Chris and his bud (also a nice guy - got to meet him too at the EXPO) - are still here with us today
*** I discuss many blogs with my guys, and sometimes special friends before I publish.. I got a 'that seems pretty personal..' WHY? Because I express love for a friend, another human? Too often all we hear is negative. It surrounds us. We hate this and that... I have no more room or time for it. Not a day goes by in this house were we don't say I love you to each other... Storm and I every time he leaves or says goodbye - he throws in an I love you! What an awesome way to end a conversation. ;-) Until we see that person again.
I'm done, If you make me happy your going to know it! I don't care if the world knows it.
Maybe if Chris and I hung out more, I'd see more of the side he mentions - I have a hard time imagining (because he has only ever been nice to me) even then - because he shared with me, I KNOW to be patient & understanding, we are all far from perfect.
We should share with people - It avoids a lot of guessing. ♥
Negative Vibes - No thanks.
As amazing as the EXPO was I did have 2 encounters that did leave me feeling ... disappointed. Both times it was people I know and like complaining to me about something. The first a friend I had not seen is a LONG time and I was elated at just to see her! Only to go over and immediately be drawn into a negative conversation about seeds... ? My first thought - Yikes, welcome to the expo. I walked away and let it go. Later again I did not get my usual hello or even smile so, trying not to ‘assume’ I contacted once again via e mail when home* (In the past I felt nothing but joy when I see that person - so yes, I was confused and a bit hurt - silly me) That, then turned into bashing someone completely different even after I asked them not to. WTF?
The last day, I had someone come and complain about the painted boobies and how they should be ashamed, it’s Marco’s fault, blah blah blah... Oh my goodness GIVE me a BREAK! I was tired, people might forget that I’m sill not well - and that is awesome, it helped me just do what I felt I need to do, but I’m not and the last thing I needed or WANTED was a ‘friend’ pointing his finger and raising his voice at me (I will say my son was also there and ALSO did not appreciate it) because I did not share his opinion on painted boobies. I did tell him I thought he was wrong, he wanted to put the blame on someone not even associated with the girls. Just someone else to blame?
I don’t think so.
So yes, I quickly and abruptly ended the conversation and walked away.
THAT was not the time or place and why me? Really?
Once home and cooled off I made the attempt to talk about it - why? Because I actually care about the person I had words with.. but even then the messages turned from painted breast to $$$, marbles, and it appears someone was just plain miserable. He ended blaming me for his terrible experience at the EXPO.
I guess if you have to blame someone, why not. So be it.
But you know what... I get it. We are all struggling in many ways, some financial, mental and physical being the worst, IMO and relationships, live and online, everyone is dealing with something. EVERYONE.
It’s not always easy to stay positive. <3
It’s not necessary to be nasty either.
I am thankful for a conversation I had with my friend Ivan just earlier that day...
Don't Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own beliefs.
When I read the message and saw that it went far beyond just painted nipples, I decided to let it go. I have no control of others anger or opinions. What I do have control over is my own actions and behaviors.
I don’t want to GOSSIP.
I don’t want to hear how much you ‘hate’ someone and I don’t want to hear about negative stuff when I am surrounded by awesome, positive and LOVE.
Why the heck would I?
I did not ruin his day. He ruined his own experience.
All this negative bashing is a distraction. No wonder Cannabis is still not legal when we are so easily distracted and determined to complain about something instead of focusing on the REAL problems.
I wanted to scream - “I really don’t give a flying Fu*k about purple nipples!!!“
Hee hee, looking back now glad I did not.
We forget people are dying for this plant. Going to jail over this plant and yes in our own country - soon to be made criminals for growing this plant that people were told they could grow in the first place. So really, I don’t care, and why do you? They are just breasts- we see much worse every day on television! I met the artist - super talented and to him it is just a canvas - much like to a Dr. it is a Body. I even met the girls in the bathroom. Nice girls. Compared to ALL the AMAZING people and things I saw - they (boobies) never even crossed my mind. Storm, well they made him smile. Made my son smile just to see boobies. LOL Why not. I know he was not alone.
So go ahead complain about boobies and marbles and lack $$$, and even how I ruined the EXPO for you if it makes you feel better. I know it is not true.
Me - I shall stick to trying to remain positive and focus on the PLANT.
Well it's here and although I woke up feeling stressed today with the surgery being so close I found myself focusing more on recovery. I've already starting the healing process! I am drawing myself AFTER surgery already! ;) LOL
It has been 3 years. Steadily progressing the past year has been very frightening with the degree that it has escalated.
I have stopped going out. Socializing in general, going to church, visiting friends and I hope that that will all be over very soon, not to mention I will start to feel better. I can't help but think of many who have a disability like this that does not go away, or many that suffer from far worse. ;(
With this surgery there is hope! If God has decided to grace me with surgery that will tame this twitch I shall be creatively grateful! Pencils sharpened!
I'm going to rest my mind, focus on where I want to go and how I want to get there. Peacefully. Creatively.
So with only one more sleep - it is very clear what matters most to me:
It is NOT Cannabis, not $$$, not drawing, no- not even my dogs...
The love I feel for my husband and the best son in the entire universe (you can't go any further) who have supported me on this rough ride - and it has not always been cannabliss - I can tell you that! I look forward to being better and having good times with my guys!
Fish to catch, stuff to design, Norm to build, Drawings to do! Crafts to craft!
Dogs to play with! Adventures to be had! I have SEEDs to sow!
This is my official last post for a bit ;-) I will play it by ear (or brain) lol and blog when better. xox ♥☮☝
Remember to plant the seed of Cannabis education!!!