I have a folder of stuff, clippings, quotes, images, jokes... I brought this with me up north,
I needed to get away and thought I'd go with a clean slate to try to get my head together. Days alone with nothing but Poppy and the radio - Canoe FM
, so nice to hear a community radio station! This was the first quote out of my folder an the first drawing I did to unwind.
Did I pray while away - you bet.
It actually took me a good day to unwind. I cleaned - lol (it was already clean) and took Poppy for walks but mostly I sat at the kitchen table or on the sofa and drew!
That and slept. I am amazed at how much I slept, clearly I needed it.
I was up in Haliburton at my good friends home. ❤ Jim - also my pal who keeps me in paper! He just purchased it and has been too busy to get up there, I was the first to stay a week. I was not ruffing it - that is for sure.
Storm drove me up and stayed one night and Norm came up and picked me up and spent one night. Other than that it was me and Poppy! I made notes, even a few new rules for keeping my sanity and I am done with Dr.s.
I can't do it any more. They do not know what is causing my condition and I do not want to go through any more tests.
I pray for strength, patience, understanding daily.
I also say thank you for EVERY break I get. Twitch breaks, lol - and breaks in life!
My retreat below ;-)
I am very thankful to Jim for sharing his piece of heaven on earth with us.
Oh - I'm feeling stronger and have a new clarity and focus than I have for a long time!
BRING IT ON World! I am ready!!! ;-) You will just have to stay tooned to see more!
What Am I?
I am sick and tired of Health Canada and Steven Harper saying everyone they
provided licenses to are CRIMINALS.
WHY now? After providing thousands with permission to grow for years?
Because they REALIZE that YES indeed Cannabis will become a BILLION dollar industry and they can make $$$. LOT's of MONEY.
Who cares about the Health in Health Canada?
It is ONLY about money... for them.
For US it is about a life saving medicine that has changed our lives for the better!
ONE that WE were prescribed by a Dr. (not paid for) & granted permission from Health Canada to have a Designated Grower and provide Storm with his own medicine.
YES WE have invested MUCH. Blood , sweat & tears and $$$.
You would too if your only son was suffering from a terminal to progressive, no treatment no cure, chronic pain disease! We are after 7 years finally just now making up for all of it and providing for Storm and myself perfectly.
NOW Health Canada expects us to stop providing for ourselves - as we have for the past 7 years. We are expected to stop and start paying for cannabis -* the amount Storm would need, according to Health Canada's prediction of prices would be:
10 grams / day @ $5 = $18,200.00/year
@$3 = $10,920.00/year
@ $7 / gram = $25,480.00 < what H.C. suggests.
ARE YOU F*CKING KIDDING ME? - people wonder why I swear. ;)
We can not afford it. Could you?
For something our DG is now producing for pennies?
I think NOT.
Simply because they ASSume, we are all criminals?
I know what I am and it is NOT a criminal.
All cops are Pigs.
All fat people are lazy.
All blonds are dumb.
All priests are pedophiles.
All muslims are terrorists.
All women are easy.
All men are assholes.
All politicians are criminals .. (hmmmmmmmm - verdict not yet in on this one.)
^ALL WRONG! ^ All negative, uneducated stigmas/stereo types.
This is no exception. It is wrong.
Criminals? Gardeners!? That is what they are!
GROWING A PLANT. A human right.
How we have survived - forever.
Who are you?!
I hope I have inspired more to do the same or at least THINK about it. We are powerful. We are Not criminals and we deserve the right to provide for ourselves as we have been for years. < Thanks to Health Canada.
Today is a new day.
I was gifted Friday a book, and read it already. I loved it. Although, I do feel the he, E. Alexander M.D. forgot about us 'not so medically inclined', I was dumb struck a few times. LOL
Hey, we can't all be brain surgeons.
I was hesitant to read it because of the brain issues (frightened, a better word) but glad I did. My faith is strong and I already believe in heaven. I believe there is more to us than this. We are all better than this <3. I BELIEVE in GOOD and God.
In a world full of temptation/lies/greed/pain it is hard to focus always on the good.
I too know that pain and fear bring out the worst in people and I am NO exception.
I am thankful for those around me that love me enough to remember that. ;)
Still, a few times "Proof Of Heaven!
" hit too close to home.
Thinking of it now I tear up. <3 that poem.
He says he is meant to write that book and I feel I was meant to read it.
That is what it is all about. Helping each other.
I am glad I read it, not for proof of heaven but reminder that we are all ONE.
ONE LOVE ❤
It inspired the toon! At first I was just going to draw pills and cannabis, and then I was poked in the head to be reminded of the Bigger picture!!! :)
I am pulling back, looking in praying/meditation and DRAWING. Amen!
Enjoying my newly painted & clean (LOL - how long it will stay that way, time will tell.) kitchen - I have sunshine indoors all the time! I LOVE IT! That and my guys and girls...
Good Vibes always appreciated!
xox <>< !!!
How true the quote is (by: Robert H. Schuller) With every seed planted we also plant hope - and that tiny seed is a source for huge hope! When we start our tomato seeds every year the first thought I have is: I wonder how many tomatoes we will get and how great they will be - juicy, firm, red - better than anything purchased in a store! Well - other than the farmers market.As with life - we only need a tiny seed sometimes of hope. I have to say when I woke up this morning, it took so long (over 40 mins.) for my twitch to kick in I thought - It's gone!
It's gone! I got up - dressed, had coffee and still only a tiny little linger...
I was so excited I started to cry and then started to twitch ! LOL It is still good and I've been up for 3 hours. It is amazing what it does for the mind. HOPE. Then I read Germany is making it so seriously ill people can grow their own medicine and parents are seriously looking into Cannabis for Autism in record numbers -WHY- because they have seen how it is helping other children - Thank God to the parents who have shared their experience and live with it daily. I have seen some of the children Cannabis is helping and those parents have such a difficult road ahead of them. The last thing they should have to worry about is the politics of it all. I have HOPE that Health Canada will recognize what the are doing to MMAR patients is WRONG. Compassion needs to be shown for those who need it - not added stress. I have hope! II'm going to send my surgeon an e mail thanking him again - this is the best I have felt with this twitch is over 3 YEARS! Craft room - here I come! I have Hempy Stalkers to make! Already on order for the Treating Yourself EXPO. I HOPE everyone has a great day!
Eat an apple and look at those seeds... Imagine the number of apples from one seed and Thank God for providing the seeds.
ALL OF them, for everyone.
How is an apple seed different from a Cannabis seed?
A Cannabis seed brings those who are hurting - HOPE!
xox <>< ♥☯☮
I love listening to this when I draw. It is meditation for my mind.
Om Mani Padme Hum...
I tell myself this several times a day. I thank God I do not have cable, as just the 'bits' I am reading about that mass shooting is heart clenching. I can not let my mind wander there. The anger that rises is so powerful, how many little bullets is it going to take? Sad on too many levels.
All I can think right now is keep going.
TRY to spread some good. The level of sorrow that surrounds the world can drag one down very easily.
How do I snap out of it? I force myself to read something inspiring. READ - Not the distraction of the television! Then do what I love. Draw. Listen to music and force myself to focus on how blessed we are for each day. Think of what makes me happy and who I love. What do you love to do?
Before I know it I am lost in a drawing. From start to finsih I watch something appear.
When done my own heart feels a little lighter and I thank God for another day.
We can not let people who do this steal our happiness or they win. He already took enough. Plant seeds of love.
Get our priorities right! OUR KIDS!
Above my desk for the past 5 years. <><
We say In God we Trust, it's on every American $$$.
The USA president put his hand on the bible... is this all for show? Have ye so little faith?
It says in the Bible, fist page: 11 And God said, Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb yielding seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his kind, whose seed is in itself, upon the earth: and it was so.
12 And the earth brought forth grass, and herb yielding seed after his kind, and the tree yielding fruit, whose seed was in itself, after his kind: and God saw that it was good.
I do not recall anywhere in the bible where it states that one person, country, organization can take out a patent on one of God's creations. Is it just me? But here it is, BEHOLD...
USA Patent on Cannabis: http://www.google.com/patents/US6630507
W.T.F? I also have watched several documentaries on companies like Monsanto trying to hold patent on plants in India- Until crops started to fail and EVEN MORE people started to starve and die & have since decided this is not a good thing.
IF you don't believe in God - then substitute in my drawing who ever you want!
Imagine Mother nature, Buddha or your friendly family farmer! What ever it takes for us to get it and help educate others before this continues to get out of complete control.
Consider it the religion of all humanity - One Love
WHY would we let any ONE person, government, country - hold a patent to a plant!
2 words should be popping into your mind... WORLD HUNGER
Yesterday I watched a Doc., it was about beautiful Burma : They Call It Myanmar: Lifting the Curtain.
< click *Well worth the watch. I was touched at the comment if they have 3 meals a day (and I'm not talking Popeye's chicken or Swiss Chalet) they consider themselves rich. Their children lucky if they can go to school for one year. ;-( Then it's off to work - job's I cannot imagine doing. They are peaceful people with a great faith that have been neglected for far too long. They inspire.
You should watch it and see what happens when we lose control.
WE lose control when we let others have it, and to have it over what is most important to every single being on this planet - nutrition/food- is incredibly frightening and quite stupid of us. HOW many are we??? So this toon is about Cannabis and so much more- it is about every single plant and seed on this planet that we all MUST share.
I love plants as you can see below I have them on every window in my home , every room... what's next? I'm afraid to think of the possibilities if they continue the direction they are going.
Another few great Documentaries to watch.. http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/poison-on-the-platter/http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/life-running-out-of-control/
^^ One of my favorites. There are SO many - I wonder why?
Watch or don't, Monsanto is hoping you don't.
xox <>< ❤☮☯
If I said thinking about surgery I was not frightened, I'd be a LIAR .
Every now and then it hits me, as the day goes on and I have several twitch attacks and a head ACHE since the moment my brain registers it is awake.. the fear disappears and I know this has to be done. I am getting my Zen Den ready!
Determined to surround myself with all things I love and keep it simple I have a few key essentials:
- my ipod with meditation music - lots of Om mani padme hum
going to be happening ;D.
-T.V. & DVD player and of course my box sets of Warner Brother cartoons! Watched a few of my favs. last night! Has made me feel good since I was a kid!
-I made a 'positive vibes board' & complimentary pins (can't tell you too much about it, as it is a very cool and up coming craft)!! I hope to stick it with ideas, photos and more to keep me inspired & focused.
-A book that I have read before (I'm not going to strain my brain in any way) Our Lady of the Lost and Found
< click to read more. It is inspiring, fun, interesting and I find the entire concept pretty cool. I love a good book and have found that reading this one - I am easily drifting off on inspired ideas.. I also have The Pot Book
and am expecting Hempology 101 in the mail by Ted Smith
any day ! So I will have some material for CC Cartoons - Not that I ever seem to be a at a lack for material;-) Also the Bible ♥
-OF course - I have my supply of pencils, paper, note pads and ink! Ready to rock!
Buddha & beside him my hemp ball, my mini ROOR, my Plenty by my bedside and a dish of healing herb - without it I do not know how I'd have got through these past few years!
So I'm ready! Storm has been -as always fantastic, from helping mop to more <3 The only think I'm 'upset' about is I have to keep the girls locked out of my bedroom for 2 weeks. Should be interesting. I am so ready for this healing process to begin. * after a difficult day yesterday - this toon came to me last night and made me giggle so I drew it to give to my Dr. before surgery - Note* Right side please! LOL I hope he has a sense of humor.
Last Post tomorrow for 2 weeks peeps. I am shutting down. <3
Let there be no confusion where my loyalties are.
I thank God ever day for Cannabis.
I thank God every day the second I am awake.
I said when Storm was diagnosed with a terminal illness was when I started to pray but that would be wrong.
I started to pray when he was a baby and he cried and screamed for hours on end.
When we could see his pain.
I prayed. I begged. I promised.
Tell me you would do different.
Norm and I were at the ktichen the other day and I asked , do you wish we didn't go public with all this and he instantly looked at me and said "How can we not? We saw from the first day how it made Storms life better."
For what ever reason we are here. By the Grace of God.
Our son is doing amazing right now! Mentally and physically he is strong. That is with nothing but Cannabis in his system, controlling his pain.
Who else should I thank?
The government? Hell no.
The system? Hell no.
If you believe in God, the bible and you try to tell me that on the very first page - God forgot to include a > * < regarding Cannabis :
1:11 And God said, Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb yielding *seed, and the fruit tree yielding fruit after his kind, whose seed is in itself, upon the earth: and it was so. *Does not include Cannabis.
GIVE me a fricken break.
Who should I thank? Who do you thank?
I thank God, you can thank who every you feel you need to thank.
God, Mother Earth, The dolphin gods( for my pal Ron ;-)), Evolution.
Thank you sun, soil and rain! ☮♥<><
EVERY single seed IS planted for a reason.
Work together, ONE love.
Someone questioned my recent decision to "clean out my friendship closet..." was it a wise move? Looking back over a year later. YES. Do I miss them ? YES! And I still think of them often. I do not think of why we stopped being friends rather I try to think only of the good memories that we had before. Time changes everything. Experience can change everything. As in relationships like marriage - friends can grow and go in different directions. What I no longer want is a friend has become very clear over time. I will no longer sit around and gossip about people - judge them for what they have or don't have - I also don't want to sit around and DRINK anymore to be social. Those days for me are done. Sometimes your friends are at a different place. So you either move on or stay and not be true to yourself or your friend. I decided to move on.
All you can do is try to do what is best for yourself. Do what it takes to make yourself a better person sometimes when you grow you've got to go it alone. I don't 'hate' anyone that I was once friends with - EVERYONE teaches us something and to be friends in the first place we must have had a lot of fun at one point! BUT when its time to move on - it's time to move on - as with a job, a career, relationship, friendship.
So yes, I still miss and think of them often, No- I do not regret moving on.
It's all a part of life.
I do only try to surround myself now with those that lift me higher - in the heart and mind. That is where it matters most. xox <><
My mom returned from vacation and brought me a gift she thought I might enjoy. She was right.
Buddha Board: http://www.buddhaboard.com/
The buddha board is not about detail it is about creation, fun and letting go. When I tried to do a detailed drawing ... well by the time I was at one side the other was drying! LOL
- It forced me to KEEP it simple. It is also hard to resist. I have mine on my back deck and all who see must try. You do NOT have to be an artist! Yet everything you draw has that oriental flair to it!
I try daily to get rid of Stuff. I have enough stuff but I can say I love this gift, I use it all the time and it is just as much fun to watch your drawing magically disappear as it was drawing it. It forces me to relax as I watch it fade - turning into other ideas as it goes.
Below are my photos of my Buddha board as it faded. It is a gift for all ages IMO, I will keep it with a camera so guests can take a photo of their creation. So perhaps you know someone who needs to relax with a little zen.. xox <><